Books on Berlin IV

Sandler, D. (2016). Counterpreservation: architectural decay in Berlin since 1989. Cornell University Press and Cornell University Library.

“In Berlin, decrepit structures do not always denote urban blight. Decayed buildings are incorporated into everyday life as residences, exhibition spaces, shops, offices, and as leisure space. As nodes of public dialogue, they serve as platforms for dissenting views about the future and past of Berlin. In this book, Daniela Sandler introduces the concept of counterpreservation as a way to understand this intentional appropriation of decrepitude. The embrace of decay is a sign of Berlin’s iconoclastic rebelliousness, but it has also been incorporated into the mainstream economy of tourism and development as part of the city’s countercultural cachet. Sandler presents the possibilities and shortcomings of counterpreservation as a dynamic force in Berlin and as a potential concept for other cities.

Counterpreservation is part of Berlin’s fabric: in the city’s famed Hausprojekte (living projects) such as the Køpi, Tuntenhaus, and KA 86; in cultural centers such as the Haus Schwarzenberg, the Schokoladen, and the legendary, now defunct Tacheles; in memorials and museums; and even in commerce and residences. The appropriation of ruins is a way of carving out affordable spaces for housing, work, and cultural activities. It is also a visual statement against gentrification, and a complex representation of history, with the marks of different periods—the nineteenth century, World War II, postwar division, unification—on display for all to see. Counterpreservation exemplifies an everyday urbanism in which citizens shape private and public spaces with their own hands, but it also influences more formal designs, such as the Topography of Terror, the Berlin Wall Memorial, and Daniel Libeskind’s unbuilt redevelopment proposal for a site peppered with ruins of Nazi barracks. By featuring these examples, Sandler questions conventional notions of architectural authorship and points toward the value of participatory environments.” – from Cornell University Press


Vasudevan, A. (2016). Metropolitan preoccupations: the spatial politics of squatting in Berlin. Wiley/Blackwell.

“In this, the first book-length study of the cultural and political geography of squatting in Berlin, Alexander Vasudevan links the everyday practices of squatters in the city to wider and enduring questions about the relationship between space, culture, and protest.

  • Focuses on the everyday and makeshift practices of squatters in their attempt to exist beyond dominant power relations and redefine what it means to live in the city
  • Offers a fresh critical perspective that builds on recent debates about the “right to the city” and the role of grassroots activism in the making of alternative urbanism
  • Examines the implications of urban squatting for how we think, research and inhabit the city as a site of radical social transformation
  • Challenges existing scholarship on the New Left in Germany by developing a critical geographical reading of the anti-authoritarian revolt and the complex geographies of connection and solidarity that emerged in its wake
  • Draws on extensive field work conducted in Berlin and elsewhere in Germany” – from Wiley

Hessel, F. (2017 [1929]). Walking in Berlin: a flaneur in the capital (A. DeMarco, Trans.). The MIT Press.

“The first English translation of a lost classic that reinvents the flaneur in Berlin.

Franz Hessel (1880–1941), a German-born writer, grew up in Berlin, studied in Munich, and then lived in Paris, where he moved in artistic and literary circles. His relationship with the fashion journalist Helen Grund was the inspiration for Henri-Pierre Roché’s novel Jules et Jim (made into a celebrated 1962 film by Francois Truffaut). In collaboration with Walter Benjamin, Hessel reinvented the Parisian figure of the flaneur. This 1929 book—here in its first English translation—offers Hessel’s version of a flaneur in Berlin.

In Walking in Berlin, Hessel captures the rhythm of Weimar-era Berlin, recording the seismic shifts in German culture. Nearly all of the essays take the form of a walk or outing, focusing on either a theme or part of the city, and many end at a theater, cinema, or club. Hessel deftly weaves the past with the present, walking through the city’s history as well as its neighborhoods. Even today, his walks in the city, from the Alexanderplatz to Kreuzberg, can guide would-be flaneurs.

Walking in Berlin is a lost classic, known mainly because of Hessel’s connection to Benjamin but now introduced to readers of English. Walking in Berlin was a central model for Benjamin’s Arcades Project and remains a classic of “walking literature” that ranges from Surrealist perambulation to Situationist “psychogeography.” This MIT Press edition includes the complete text in translation as well as Benjamin’s essay on Walking in Berlin, originally written as a review of the book’s original edition.” – from MIT Press


Pan, L. (2016). In-visible palimpsest: memory, space and modernity in Berlin and Shanghai. Peter Lang.

“In the early 1990s, Berlin and Shanghai witnessed the dramatic social changes in both national and global contexts. While in 1991 Berlin became the new capital of the reunified Germany, from 1992 Shanghai began to once again play its role as the most powerful engine of economic development in the post-1989 China. This critical moment of history has fundamentally transformed the later development of both cities, above all in terms of urban spatial order. The construction mania in Shanghai and Berlin shares the similar aspiration of «re-modernizing» themselves. In this sense, the current experience of Shanghai and Berlin informs many of the features of urban modernity in the post-Cold-War era. The book unfolds the complexity of the urban space per se as highly revealing cultural texts. Also this project doesn’t examine the spatial changes in chronological terms, but rather takes the present moment as the temporal standing point of this research. By comparing the memory discourse related to these spatial changes, the book poses the question of how modernity is understood in the matrix of local, national and global power struggles.” – from Peter Lang


Hausdorf, N., & Goller, A. (2015). Superstructural Berlin: a superstructural tourist guide to Berlin for the visitor and the new resident. Zero Books.

“The book amalgamates poetry, cultural critique, narrative and art into a strange and unsettling medley, putting the reader in the bizarre position of ‘confused investigator’ whilst also giving them an alternate way to read and respond to the streets of Berlin.

This text, written by Nicolas Hausdorf and designed by Alexander Goller, is much inspired by Benjamin’s work. Like in Benjamin’s text, here we find a mixture of quotations from others (including important and still understudied writers of the city such as Georg Simmel), observations of the writer’s own and interesting art work from the designer, often eclectically arranged on the page, perhaps to simulate the feeling of rummaging through a Benjaminian archive. The book’s intention, put forward abstractly in the prologue or ‘act one,’ is to break from sociological models entrenched in academic rules and regulations, approaching the city from outside these limitations and producing a reading of the city or an experience of reading the city that is perhaps more honest and certainly more radical.” – from Hong Kong Review of Books

Books on Berlin III

Sonnevend, J. (2016). Stories without borders: the Berlin Wall and the making of a global iconic event. Oxford University Press.

“This book asks how particular news events become “global iconic events,” while others fade into oblivion. Focusing on journalists covering the fall of the Berlin Wall and on subsequent retellings of the event (from Legoland reenactments to segments of the Berlin Wall installed in shopping malls), it discusses how storytellers build up certain events so that people in many parts of the world remember them for long periods of time. The East German border opening that we now summarize as the “fall of the Berlin Wall” was in fact unintentional, confusing, and prompted in part by misleading media coverage of bureaucratic missteps. But its global message is not about luck or accident or happenstance in history. Incarnated as a global iconic event, the “fall of the Berlin Wall” has come to communicate the momentary power that vulnerable ordinary people can have. The event’s story, branded into a simple phrase, a short narrative and a recognizable visual scene, provides people from China to Turkey to the United States with a contemporary social myth. This myth shapes our debates about separation walls and fences, borders and refugees, and the possibilities of human freedom to this day.” – from Oxford Academic


Dümpelmann, S. (2019). Seeing trees: a history of street trees in New York City and Berlin. Yale University Press.

“A fascinating and beautifully illustrated volume that explains what street trees tell us about humanity’s changing relationship with nature and the city.

“A deep . . . dive into urban society’s need for—and relationship with—trees that sought to return the natural world to the concrete jungle.”—Adrian Higgins, Washington Post

Today, cities around the globe are planting street trees to mitigate the effects of climate change. However, as landscape historian Sonja Dümpelmann explains, the planting of street trees in cities to serve specific functions is not a new phenomenon. In her eye-opening work, Dümpelmann shows how New York City and Berlin began systematically planting trees to improve the urban climate during the nineteenth century, presenting the history of the practice within its larger social, cultural, and political contexts.

A unique integration of empirical research and theory, Dümpelmann’s richly illustrated work uncovers this important untold story. Street trees—variously regarded as sanitizers, nuisances, upholders of virtue, economic engines, and more—reflect the changing relationship between humans and nonhuman nature in urban environments. Offering valuable insights and frameworks, this authoritative volume will be an important resource for years to come.” – from Yale University Press


Paeslack, M. (2019). Constructing imperial Berlin: photography and the metropolis. University of Minnesota Press.

“Since the fall of the Berlin Wall, the city that once visually epitomized a divided Europe has thrived in the international spotlight as an image of reunified statehood and urbanity. Yet research on Berlin’s past has focused on the interwar years of the Weimar Republic or the Cold War era, with much less attention to the crucial Imperial years between 1871 and 1918.

Constructing Imperial Berlin is the first book to critically assess, contextualize, and frame urban and architectural photographs of that era. Berlin, as it was pronounced Germany’s capital in 1871, was fraught with questions that had previously beset Paris and London. How was urban expansion and transformation to be absorbed? What was the city’s understanding of its comparably short history? Given this short history, how did it embody the idea of a capital? A key theme of this book is the close interrelation of the city’s rapid physical metamorphosis with repercussions on promotional and critical narratives, the emergence of groundbreaking photographic technologies, and novel forms of mass distribution.

Providing a rare analysis of this significant formative era, Miriam Paeslack shows a city far more complex than the common clichés as a historical and aspiring place suggest. Imperial Berlin emerges as a modern metropolis, only half-heartedly inhibited by urban preservationist concerns and rather more akin to North American cities in their bold industrialization and competing urban expansions than to European counterparts.” – from University of Minnesota Press


Beachy, R. (2015). Gay Berlin: birthplace of a modern identity. Vintage Books, Penguin Random House LLC.

“In the half century before the Nazis rose to power, Berlin became the undisputed gay capital of the world. Activists and medical professionals made it a city of firsts—the first gay journal, the first homosexual rights organization, the first Institute for Sexual Science, the first sex reassignment surgeries—exploring and educating themselves and the rest of the world about new ways of understanding the human condition. In this fascinating examination of how the uninhibited urban culture of Berlin helped create our categories of sexual orientation and gender identity, Robert Beachy guides readers through the past events and developments that continue to shape and influence our thinking about sex and gender to this day.” – from Penguin Random House


Larkins, D., & Hardy, L. (2019). Berlin: the wicked city : unveiling the mythos in Weimar Berlin. Chaosium, Inc.

“In the aftermath of the Great War, Berlin has a reputation for licentiousness. A place where anything may be had for the right price. It is both a city of hedonism and a city of business; its streets overflow with disabled veterans, prostitutes, destitute immigrants, and political agitators—all rubbing shoulders with buttoned-down businessmen, scholars, and artists. The gutters run with the blood of political assassinations, where Communists and völkisch Nationalists clash with each other, as well as with the police. Long into the evenings, Berlin’s world-famous cabarets offer music, dance, and titillating entertainment in stark contrast to the gray buildings that run on for endless miles along the sprawling city’s byways.

Into this bubbling stew, Berlin the Wicked City introduces the weird elements of the Cthulhu Mythos. A hotbed of occult organizations, strange cults, and half-whispered lore. Amid the wicked air of the world’s capital of sin, the very nature of what it means to be human is questioned. And, as the city hurtles toward its inevitable dark destiny, the oppressive atmosphere pushes the sanity of investigators to its breaking point.

This book presents an overview of 1920s Berlin as it would be experienced by visitors and residents of the time. Guidelines are presented for creating investigators for a Berlin-centric campaign, as well as investigator organizations to help bind groups together. Notable personalities, key locations, and a system for generating details of the urban landscape on the fly are provided. With crime and punishment, the city’s underworld, and also its high culture detailed, the tools provided help the Keeper gain an understanding of what makes Berlin unique.” – from Chaosium

Books on Berlin II

Moss, T. (2020). Remaking Berlin: a history of the city through infrastructure, 1920-2020. The MIT Press.

“An examination of Berlin’s turbulent history through the lens of its water and energy infrastructures.

In Remaking Berlin, Timothy Moss takes a novel perspective on Berlin’s turbulent twentieth-century history, examining it through the lens of its water and energy infrastructures. He shows that, through a century of changing regimes, geopolitical interventions, and socioeconomic volatility, Berlin’s networked urban infrastructures have acted as medium and manifestation of municipal, national, and international politics and policies. Moss traces the coevolution of Berlin and its infrastructure systems from the creation of Greater Berlin in 1920 to remunicipalization of services in 2020, encompassing democratic, fascist, and socialist regimes. Throughout, he explores the tension between obduracy and change in Berlin’s infrastructures. Examining the choices made by utility managers, politicians, and government officials, Moss makes visible systems that we often take for granted.

Moss describes the reorganization of infrastructure systems to meet the needs of a new unitary city after Berlin’s incorporation in 1920, and how utilities delivered on political promises; the insidious embedding of repression, racism, autarky, and militarization within the networked city under the Nazis; and the resilience of Berlin’s infrastructures during wartime and political division. He examines East Berlin’s socialist infrastructural ideal (and its under-resourced systems), West Berlin’s insular existence (and its aspirations of system autarky), and reunified Berlin’s privatization of utilities (subsequently challenged by social movements). Taking Berlin as an exemplar, Moss’s account will inspire researchers to take a fresh look at urban infrastructure histories, offering new ways of conceptualizing the multiple temporalities and spatialities of the networked city.” – from MIT Press


Callaghan, M. (2020). Empathetic memorials: the other designs for the Berlin Holocaust Memorial. Palgrave Macmillan.

“This book is a study of the Berlin Holocaust Memorial Competitions of the 1990s, with a focus on designs that kindle empathetic responses. Through analysis of provocative designs, the book engages with issues of empathy, secondary witnessing, and depictions of concentration camp iconography. It explores the relationship between empathy and cultural memory when representations of suffering are notably absent. The book submits that one design represents the idea of an uncanny memorial, and also pays attention to viewer co-authorship in counter-monuments. Analysis of counter-monuments also include their creative engagement with German history and their determination to defy fascist aesthetics. As the winning design for The Memorial to the Murdered Jews of Europe is abstract with an information centre, there is an exploration of the memorial museum. Callaghan asks whether this configuration is intended to compensate for the abstract memorial’s ambiguity or to complement the design’s visceral potential. Other debates explored concern political memory, national memory, and the controversy of dedicating the memorial exclusively to murdered Jews.” – from Springer


Weiner, J. (2016). Berlin notebook: where are the refugees? Los Angeles Review of Books.

“The chronicle of a fall and spring in Berlin during the peak influx of refugees into Europe in 2015-16, Joshua Weiner’s Berlin Notebook opens a new view on German society’s attempt to cope with an impossible situation: millions of people displaced by the Syrian civil war, fleeing violence, and seeking safety and the possibilities of a new life in the west. As some Germans, feeling the burden of the nation’s dark past, try to aid and shelter desperate asylum seekers, others are skeptical of the government’s ability to contain the growing numbers; they feel the danger of hostile strangers, and the threat to the nation’s culture and identity. Unlike other contemporary reports on the situation in Europe, Weiner’s sui generis writing includes interviews not only with refugees from the east, but also everyday Berliners, natives and ex-pats – musicians, poets, shopkeepers, students, activists, rabbis, museum guides, artists, intellectuals, and those, too, who have joined the rising far-right Alternative for Germany party, and the Pegida movement against immigration. Intermixed with interviews, reportage, and meditations on life in Europe’s fastest growing capital city, Weiner thinks about the language and literature of the country, weaving together strands of its ancient and more recent history with meditations on Goethe, Brecht, Arendt, Heidegger, Joseph Roth and others that inflect our thinking about refugees, nationhood, and our ethical connection to strangers.” – from LA Review of Books


Carrington, T. (2019). Love at last sight: dating, intimacy, and risk in turn-of-the-century Berlin. Oxford University Press.

“Love at Last Sight is a history of dating in the modern metropolis. It opens with the seemingly simple question, “How did single people meet and fall in love in new big cities like Berlin at the turn of the century?” but what emerges from this investigation of daily newspapers, diaries, serial novels, advice literature, police records, and court cases is a world of dating and relationships that was anything but simple. The murder of Frieda Kliem, a young, enterprising seamstress who was using newspaper personal ads to find a husband—the story of which serves as the book’s central narrative—reveals the tremendous risk associated with modern approaches to love and dating. The risk of fraud, censure, or worse was ever present, especially for the many Berliners who strove for the stability of middle-class life but were outsiders to the social power structures of German society. Indeed, though the technologies and opportunities of the big city offered the best shot at finding love or intimate connection among the urban sea of strangers, availing oneself of them—pursuing a missed connection from the streetcar or using a newspaper personal ad—meant putting one’s livelihood, respectability, and life on the line. This was the romantic dilemma facing the vast majority of city dwellers at the turn of the century, and a great many chose to risk everything for some measure of connection and intimacy. This book explores their stories as a way of illuminating this core tension of modern, metropolitan life.” – from Oxford Academic


Brass, A., & Light, P. (2021). On the barricades of Berlin: an account of the 1848 revolution (A. Weiland, Trans.). Black Rose Books.

“The 1848 wave of worker rebellions that swept across Europe struck the German states with the March Revolution. While Richard Wagner and Mikhail Bakunin fought side by side in Dresden, the writer August Brass led the successful defense of the barricades in Berlin’s Alexanderplatz public square. Published in English for the first time, On the Barricades of Berlin provides a riveting firsthand account of this uprising. Brass’ testimony begins with the tumultuous events leading up to the revolution: the peaceful democratic agitation; the demands that were brought to the king; and the key actors involved on all sides of the still peaceful, yet tense, struggle. It then follows the events that led to the outbreak of resistance to the forces of order and sheds light on the aftermath of the fighting once the exhausted Prussian army withdrew from the city.” – from Black Rose Books

Books on Berlin I

First attempt at building a personal archive of books about Berlin. I plan to randomly search for books online or in bookstores and find texts on the different aspects of the city, hopefully from different disciplines. I was firstly inspired by a bookstore’s “Books on Berlin” section. I have no end goal, but I’m hopeful about the process. In the worst case, I’ll be reading some book promotion paragraphs.

The first list includes two books I frequently see in bookstores: The Undercurrents and Revolutionary Berlin. They are published pretty recently, both non-academic. I haven’t seen The First Days of Berlin, but it’s also translated into Turkish. I’m reading that one now. Free Berlin looks like a more art-focused version of it. Finally, we have Berlin Contemporary focusing on the architecture and rebuilding of the city.

Gutmair, U. (2021). The first days of Berlin: the sound of change (S. Pare, Trans.; English edition). Polity Press.

“Berlin in the early 1990s, right after the fall of the Berlin Wall: this is the place to be. Berlin-Mitte, the central district of the city, with its wastelands and decaying houses, has become the centre of a new movement. Artists, musicians, squatters, club owners, DJs and ravers are reclaiming the old city centre and bringing it back to life. This interregnum between two systems – the collapse of the old East Germany, the gentrification of the new Berlin – lasts only a few years. West Berliners, East Berliners and new residents from abroad join together to create music, art and fashion, to open bars and clubs and galleries, even if only for a few weeks. In the months following the fall of the Wall, there is a feeling of new beginnings and immense possibilities: life is now, and to be in the here and now feels endless. The phrase ‘temporary autonomous zone’ is circulating, it describes the idea – romantic and naive but, in the circumstances, not absurd – that, at a certain moment in history, you can actually do whatever you want.

Ulrich Gutmair moved to West Berlin as a student in autumn 1989: two weeks later the Wall came down. He spent the next few years studying during the day in the West and exploring the squats, bars and techno clubs in the East at night. He fell in love with House and Techno and raved at Tresor, Elektro, Bunker and many other places that in the meantime have almost disappeared from collective memory. Ten years later he decided to write a book about that period in between, when one regime was brought down and a new one wasn’t yet established. When utopia was actually a place to inhabit for a moment.” – from Polity


Smith, B. J. (2022). Free Berlin: art, urban politics, and everyday life. The MIT Press.

“An alternative history of art in Berlin, detaching artistic innovation from art world narratives and connecting it instead to collective creativity and social solidarity.

In pre- and post-reunification Berlin, socially engaged artists championed collective art making and creativity over individual advancement, transforming urban space and civic life in the process. During the Cold War, the city’s state of exception invited artists on both sides of the Wall to detour from artistic tradition; post-Wall, art became a tool of resistance against the orthodoxy of economic growth. In Free Berlin, Briana Smith explores the everyday peculiarities, collective joys, and grassroots provocations of experimental artists in late Cold War Berlin and their legacy in today’s city.

These artists worked intentionally outside the art market, believing that art should be everywhere, freed from its confinement in museums and galleries. They used art as a way to imagine new forms of social and creative life. Smith introduces little-known artists including West Berlin feminist collective Black Chocolate, the artist duo paint the town red (p.t.t.r), and the Office for Unusual Events, creators of satirical urban political theater, as well as East Berlin action art and urban interventionists Erhard Monden, Kurt Buchwald, and others. Artists and artist-led urban coalitions in 1990s Berlin carried on the participatory spirit of the late Cold War, with more overt forms of protest and collaboration at the neighborhood level. The temperament lives on in twenty-first century Berlin, animating artists’ resolve to work outside the market and citizens’ spirited defenses of green spaces, affordable housing, and collectivist projects.

With Free Berlin, Smith offers an alternative history of art in Berlin, detaching artistic innovation from art world narratives and connecting it instead to Berliners’ historic embrace of care, solidarity, and cooperation.” – from MIT Press


Flakin, N. (2022). Revolutionary Berlin: a walking guide. Pluto Press.

“Few European cities can boast a history as storied and tumultuous as that of Berlin. For more than 150 years it has been at the centre of revolutionary politics; of era-defining struggles between the Left and the Right. It has been bombed, rebuilt and carved in two.

In Revolutionary Berlin, veteran tour guide Nathaniel Flakin invites you to stand in the places where this history was written, and to follow in the footsteps of those who helped write it. Through nine self-guided tours illustrated with maps and photographs, readers enter the heady world of 19th century anti-colonial struggles, the 1918 November Revolution and the 1987 May Day riots — encountering the city’s workers, queer community and radical women along the way.

The first English-language guidebook to tell the story of Berlin’s radical history, this is a must-have for Berliners and visitors alike.” – from Pluto Press


Bell, K. (2022). The undercurrents: a story of Berlin. Fitzcarraldo Editions.

“The Undercurrents: A Story of Berlin is a dazzling work of biography, memoir and cultural criticism told from a precise vantage point: a stately nineteenth-century house on Berlin’s Landwehr Canal, a site at the centre of great historical changes, but also smaller domestic ones.

When her marriage breaks down, Kirsty Bell – a British-American writer, in her mid-forties, adrift – becomes fixated on the history of her building and of her adoptive city. Taking the view from her apartment window as her starting point, she turns to the lives of the house’s various inhabitants, to accounts penned by Walter Benjamin, Rosa Luxemburg and Gabriele Tergit, and to the female protagonists in the works of Theodor Fontane, Irmgard Keun and Rainer Werner Fassbinder. A new cultural topography of Berlin emerges, one which taps into energetic undercurrents to recover untold or forgotten stories beneath the city’s familiar narratives. Humane, thought-provoking and moving, The Undercurrents is a hybrid literary portrait of a place that makes the case for radical close readings: of ourselves, our cities and our histories.” from Fitzcarraldo


Walker, J. (2022). Berlin contemporary: architecture and politics after 1990. Bloomsbury Visual Arts.

“For years following reunification, Berlin was the largest construction site in Europe, with striking new architecture proliferating throughout the city in the 1990s and early 2000s. Among the most visible and the most contested of the new projects were those designed for the national government and its related functions.

Berlin Contemporary explores these buildings and plans, tracing their antecedents while also situating their iconic forms and influential designers within the spectacular world of global contemporary architecture. Close studies of these sites, including the Reichstag, the Chancellery, and the reconstruction of the Berlin Stadtschloss (now known as the Humboldt Forum), demonstrate the complexity of Berlin’s political and architectural “rebuilding”-and reveal the intricate historical negotiations that architecture was summoned to perform.” – from Bloomsbury

Berlin V

Hayatımda ilk defa Noel’i kutlandığı bir yerde geçirdim. Sokaklarda sık sık evine çam ağacı taşıyan insanlarla karşılaştım. Evler, daha doğrusu görebildiğim kadarıyla pencereler, renk renk ışıklarla süslendi. Bir şekilde etkileşime geçtiğim insanlar ısrarla benim de Noel’imi kutladılar, bunun verili kabul edilmesine biraz şaşırdım, biraz da hoşuma gitti kutlanmak, sebebi önemli değil. Hiç Noel hediyesi veremedim ama sinema bileti hediyesi aldım, yasaklar kalkınca Yorck Sinemaları’na hac yolculuğu yapacağım. Bir akşam Potsdamer Straße’yi takip eden Hauptstraße’de yürürken karşılaştığım, eski usül görünümü hoşuma giden Odeon Sineması da bu grubunmuş.

Bir de yılbaşı geçirmiş oldum burada. Havai fişeklerden ilk karşılaştığımda korktum. “Her yıl kazalardan dolayı acillerin dolup taşmasına sebep olan havai fişekler pandemiye rağmen bu yıl da yasaklanmadı” haberleri de bunu tetikledi. Kurumlar değil kişiler havai fişek tüketiyormuş yılbaşında. Birisi ya yanlışlıkla üzerime sıkarsa diye çekindim sokaklarda dolaşırken, sesleri de her patlamada sıçrattı, tepkimi gören birkaç çocuk güldü. Bir kere de Metrobüs’te kolum demire asılı dururken bir çocuk ceketimi çekip para istemişti. Birden irkilip sıçrayınca, çocuk da benim korkuma karşı gülmeye başlayıp arkadaşlarıyla birlikte dalga geçmişti. Sabah karanlığında birlikte karşılıklı baya gülmüştük.

Şansıma evin altında da havai fişek satan bir dükkan var, önünde günlerce sıra oldu, müşteriler havai fişek, torpil, maytap ve bilmediğim başka bir şeyler aldılar. Yılbaşından önceki haftada üç kez dükkanı soymaya çalışmışlar, apartmanın kapısını da kırmışlar. Ben hiç duymadım. Bir gün evden çıkarken apartman çok ağır sigara kokuyordu, zemin kata inince eşyalarını sermiş yerlere uzanmış sigara içip dinlenen bir grupla karşılaşmıştım, arka kapıyı kesiyorlardı, sözsüz selamlaşmıştık. Onlar bir şeyler topladı mı bilmiyorum. Yılbaşı ertesindeyse sokaklar içi boş eğlencelik patlayıcılarla doldu, uzun süre kimse temizlemiyormuş bu hatırayı sokaklardan. Hala basmaya korkuyorum ya patlamamış bir şeyler kaldıysa içinde diye.

Yasa dışı film ve dizi indirmekten 1200 Euro’luk tazminat talep eden bir dava mektubu aldım. İlk günlerimde kartımı basmayı unuttuğum için 60 Euro ceza yemiştim. Cezaların trendi korkutmaya başladı. Ev sahibinden her mesaj geldiğinde kalbim sıkışıyor.

Daha çok yürümeye ve biraz da koşmayı denemeye başladım. Bir yandan da sesli kitap dinlemeyi tekrar alışkanlık haline getirmeye çalışıyorum. İlk olarak eskiden dinlediğim kitaplardan Solnit’in Wanderlust’ını tekrar dinledim. Acaba tekrar başlasam iyi olur mu diye tartmak için. İyi mi kötü mü bilmiyorum ama bu kitap yürüyüş sırasında dinleyince bana sanki o an yüce bir eylem içinde olduğum ilüzyonunu yaratıyor. Yeni kitaplar dinlemeye karar verdim bunun ardına. Sonunda Gun, Germs, and Steel’ı dinledim. Sonrasında adı uzun Prisoners of Geography: Ten Maps That Tell You Everything You Need to Know About Global Politics kitabıyla devam ettim. Aslında böyle kitaplara hiç ilgim yok ama bir yerde görüp merak etmiştim. Yazarın dünya coğrafyasını sanki evinin bahçesini anlatıyormuşçasına detaylıca anlattığı kısımlar politik analizlerinden daha çok ilgimi çekti. İki kitabın da hoşuma giden yanı neredeyse yaşam boyu bir mesleği yaptıktan sonra biriktirilenlerden yola çıkarak yazılmış olmaları oldu. Tarihe girmişken biraz devam edeyim diye daha temel bir okumaya geçtim. Bu iki kitaptan sonra zihnimde tarih boyu faillik ekinler, dağlar, ovalar, evcilleşen hayvanlar, kitle kıyıma yol açan virüsler, kendiliğinden oluşan politik/ekonomik organizasyonlara doğru kaymıştı. Bu var olan koşullar altında tarihi insanların nasıl yaptığına dair de bir şeyler duymak için başladığım Hobsbawm’ın 19. yüzyıl tarihi kitaplarının ikincisindeyim şimdi. İlk cildin bir kısmını Ku’Damm’da zengin mağazalarını seyrederek tükettim. Yürürken dinlediğim kitapların 40%’ını anlayabiliyorum, çok küçük bir kısmını sonradan hatırlıyorum, dinlerken bazen dalıp kaçırıyorum, nadiren geri sarıyorum. Ama biri sorsa utanmadan okumuştum derim. Çifte devrim diyordu, İngilizler ve Fransızlar. 21. yüzyılın yeni coğrafi/sömürü keşfiyse Arktika olacakmış.

Sürekli dizi izledim ve sonunda paydos ettim. En başta planladığım kitapları okuyamadım, filmleri seyredemedim. Kafamda şu an bir şekilde Almanya veya Berlin üçlemesi gibi bir yer edinen Babylon Berlin, Deutschland 83/86/89 ve Berlin Alexanderplatz’ın 2020 uyarlamasını izledim. Dizileri sırasıyla çok iyi, eh ve başarısız buldum. Üçünde de 1920’ler, 1980’ler ve 2010’larda Berlin’e gelen kişiler söz konusu: polis, ajan ve mülteci. Hepsinin hayatı -benimkine göre- çok enteresan olaylarla dolu. Weimar döneminin çalkantıları, Soğuk Savaş’ın son yıllarının gerilimi ve mültecilerin ıstırabıyla bir 100 yıl katetmiş oldum. Sırasıyla; ülke halkı yaşam mücadelesi veriyor, Doğu Berlin’de yaşayanlar yaşam mücadelesi veriyor, ülkeye sığınan mülteciler yaşam mücadelesi veriyor. Babylon Berlin’in dönemin politik arkaplanının yanı sıra yükselen kültürel, sanatsal ve bilimsel dönüşümlerini anlatış biçimini çok sevdim. Charlotte Ritter’i unutmayacağım ama kara film detektifi Gereon Rath’ı unutabilirim. Deutschland 8x serisi biraz yüzeysel geldi ama daha çok dönemin arka planına dair bir iştahla izledim. Berlin Alexanderplatz 2020 neredeyse B-Movie gibiydi, az daha ileri gitse istismar sineması olacakmış. Hapisten çıkan Franz Biberkopf’u sığınmacıya aktarma fikri bütün insani hakları gaspa uğramış birinin hikayesi açısından iyi bir fikir ama dizi radikal olmaya çalışırken çuvallamış diye düşündüm.

Neredeyse hiç kitap okumadım. Neredeyse bir sene olacak, İstanbul’dayken işten ayrıldığımdan beri kitap okumak hiç içimden gelmiyordu, nadiren bitirebiliyordum bir kitabı, o zamanlar işsizliğin getirdiği güvencesizlik duygusuyla ilgili diye düşünüyordum ama hala sürüyor. Dinleyerek öteliyorum şimdilik. Bir iki romana başlayıp sonra okumak üzere erteledim. Barney White-Spunner’in Berlin: The Story of a City kitabına başladım ama bitirmesi çok uzun sürecek böyle devam ederse.

Peter Stamm’ın sanırım Türkçeye çevrilmeyen ama en meşhur romanı gibi görünen Agnes’in film uyarlaması varmış, onu izledim. Karşılaşma, aşk ve yazı üzerine birlikte düşünen klasik bir yazar teması: kütüphanede tanışma, bir araya geliş ve kendine dönen üstkurmaca. Bir diğer uçucu aşk filmi, belki birkaç sahnesi, Petzold’un hikayeden bağımsız olarak etkileyici sineması ve iki iyi oyuncusuyla aklımda kalacak film, Undine. Garip bir şekilde, aklıma On Body and Soul‘u getirdi, belki Ahu Öztürk’ün yazısını yeni okudum diyedir. Rüyadaki geyiklerle kurulan bağ ile suyla kurulan bağ bir şekilde doğayla ilişkilenme açısından birleşti. Tenet’ten iyiydi. Wenders’in yol filmleri üçlemesine de Alice in den Städten ile giriş yaptım. Bugünden bakınca artık böyle bir yabancı yetişkin ve çocuğun yol macerası miadını doldurmuş mudur, bilmiyorum. Garip bir geçmişte kalmışlık hissi uyandırdı. Film ve kitapları tamamen araçsal olarak görmeyi bırakıp Almanya ve Almancayla ilgili olmayan bir şey izleyeyim diyince de karşıma Never Rarely Sometimes Always çıktı, birden sarstı. Twitter’da görmüştüm fakat şimdi bulamadım, “işte böyle bir genç kadın dayanışması, birbirine sessizce destek olmak” gibi bir yorum, bu fikir sürekli kendini dayattı filmi izlerken. Hatırlarken çarpıtmış olabilirim.