{"id":891,"date":"2018-01-22T19:15:41","date_gmt":"2018-01-22T17:15:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/?p=891"},"modified":"2023-04-23T20:42:22","modified_gmt":"2023-04-23T18:42:22","slug":"bayazoglu-erguder-yoldas-ve-normallesme-uzerine","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/01\/22\/bayazoglu-erguder-yoldas-ve-normallesme-uzerine\/","title":{"rendered":"Bayazo\u011flu, Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f ve Normalle\u015fme \u00dczerine"},"content":{"rendered":"

Min\u00f6r ya\u015fam, ‘delirme’, Brecht’den kalanlar, d\u0131\u015farl\u0131kl\u0131 m\u00fczisyen, lin\u00e7, s\u00fcr\u00fcden ayr\u0131lma, \u015fiddet, romantizm, medya g\u00f6sterisi, turizm, bireysel kurtulu\u015f, sol melankoli, romansal hakikat, ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fam\u0131 ve daha nice anahtar kelimeler.<\/em><\/p>\n

\"\"“Dikkat: A\u015fa\u011f\u0131da okuyaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z yaz\u0131, m\u00fczisyen Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f’\u0131n B\u00fcy\u00fckada \u00e7\u00f6pl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden polis, zab\u0131ta, doktor, hem\u015fire ve haberciler taraf\u0131ndan derdest edilip, helikopterle ak\u0131l hastanesi\u00adne g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc anlat\u0131yor. Yaz\u0131da “t\u0131rnak i\u00e7inde” okuyaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z ifadeler o g\u00fcnlerde \u00e7\u0131kan gazetelerden aynen al\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Bundan d\u00f6rt y\u0131l \u00f6nce toplum ya\u015fam\u0131ndan her anlam\u0131yla vazge\u00e7erek B\u00fcy\u00fckada’n\u0131n arkas\u0131nda sapa bir yerde, plastik ve ambalaj kutular\u0131ndan derme \u00e7atma bir kul\u00fcbede inzivaya \u00e7eki\u00adlen m\u00fczisyen Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f’\u0131 haf\u0131zam\u0131zdan art\u0131k tamamen silmi\u015fken, birdenbire televizyon ekranlar\u0131nda “Cuma’s\u0131z Bir Robinson” k\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnce pek \u00e7ok kimsenin, bir an i\u00e7in bile olsa, midesi buland\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fc. \u0130\u015fte, toplu ya\u015fam\u0131n ortak nab\u00adz\u0131n\u0131n yakaland\u0131\u011f\u0131 an!<\/p>\n

Duda\u011f\u0131nda k\u00fcl\u00fc epey uzam\u0131\u015f bir sigara, ka\u015flar dalbudak\u00adlanarak g\u00f6\u011fe y\u00f6nelmi\u015f, sa\u00e7lar yapa\u011f\u0131 \u015feklinde, bak\u0131\u015flar k\u0131s\u0131k, mavi, \u00fcrkek. Aln\u0131, y\u00fcz\u00fc k\u0131r\u0131\u015f k\u0131r\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6zlerinin alt\u0131nda torbac\u0131k\u00adlar, sa\u011f \u015faka\u011f\u0131nda derin bir \u00e7izik mi var (yoksa darp izi mi, kan oturmu\u015f), a\u011fz\u0131nda bir tane di\u015f kalmam\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

Evet, hayat bir se\u00e7imdir, ama bu kadar\u0131 da olmaz ki! “Do\u00ad\u011faya, ge\u00e7mi\u015fine ve belki de gelece\u011fe meydan okuyor!” O, her t\u00fcr iktidara kar\u015f\u0131 duru\u015fu, reddedi\u015fi temsil ediyor. \u0130ktidar sahip\u00adlerine, iktidar taliplerine ve medyaya g\u00f6re ise bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015f. “Acz i\u00e7indeki bu adam” e\u011fer Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f olmasa sorun yok. (On\u00adlardan o kadar \u00e7ok ki, \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcze y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131yorlar, kald\u0131r\u0131mlarda ayaklar\u0131m\u0131za dola\u015f\u0131yorlar da, buna ra\u011fmen bize k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir tiksinticikten \u00f6te fazla bir rahats\u0131zl\u0131k vermiyorlar.) Ama bu ki\u015fi Erg\u00fcder gibi bir ‘sanat\u00e7\u0131’ ise durum farkl\u0131. \u00dcstelik o, m\u00fczik de\u00adhas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra “modern matematik, fizik, mant\u0131k, estetik, Marksizm ve epik tiyatro konular\u0131nda engin bilgiye sahipse” b\u00f6yle sa\u00e7ma sapan bir ya\u015fam\u0131 tercih edemez. Aksi halde o bir kay\u0131pt\u0131r, sanat\u00e7\u0131 oldu\u011funa g\u00f6re herkes i\u00e7in bir kay\u0131pt\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u00d6yle ise elbirli\u011fi ile Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f’\u0131 kurtarmak laz\u0131m. Ama kurtarmadan \u00f6nce ona \u015fimdiki halini mazur g\u00f6sterecek, rating’i topu\u011fundan, tiraj\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcnden vuracak \u015fefkatimize lay\u0131k bir biyografi yazmak gerekiyordu. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fi tarand\u0131, \u015fimdiki \u00e7\u0131l\u00adg\u0131n se\u00e7iminin ipu\u00e7lar\u0131 y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesinde arand\u0131. Bulundu da, za\u00adten o, o kadar u\u00e7uk biriydi ki, vaktiyle “bir sabah, iki rak\u0131 \u015fi\u015fe\u00adsinden birine tuz, di\u011ferine \u015feker koyup suland\u0131rd\u0131ktan sonra, bir iple ba\u011flay\u0131p boynuna asm\u0131\u015f, bir eline \u00fc\u00e7 patates, di\u011fer eli\u00adne de sar\u0131 bakkal defterini ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi Laleli yoku\u015funu bir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bir yukar\u0131 yal\u0131nayak halde ko\u015fmu\u015f, Aynal\u0131 Hamam\u0131n orada \u00fc\u00e7 kere etraf\u0131nda d\u00f6nd\u00fckten sonra, ‘Brechtvari bir deneme’ yapt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti.”<\/p>\n

1970’te bir trafik kazas\u0131nda kaybetti\u011fi annesinin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc o s\u0131rada bulundu\u011fu Afrika’da haber alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, cenazesinde bulu\u00adnamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in “b\u00fcy\u00fck bir su\u00e7luluk duygusuyla k\u0131vran\u0131yordu”. 1958’de konservatuvar\u0131 terk edip Avni Dilligil’in tiyatrosuna girmi\u015f, bir turne s\u0131ras\u0131nda otob\u00fcs\u00fc Asi nehrine u\u00e7mu\u015f, \u0130sken\u00adderun’da bir ay hastanede tedavi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Ayn\u0131 y\u0131l, ona iki evlat veren ilk e\u015fiyle 16 y\u0131l s\u00fcrecek evlili\u011fini yapt\u0131. \u00d6zellikle At\u00adtila \u0130lhan’\u0131n \u015fiirlerinden yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 “bestelerine uygun” bir ses ararken, kader \u00f6n\u00fcne Nur Yolda\u015f’\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. “Onunla evlene\u00adbilmek i\u00e7in yuvas\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131kt\u0131, hayat\u0131n\u0131n on y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131 adad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu kad\u0131n\u00addan” bir o\u011flu oldu. “1983’te gittikleri \u0130zmir Fuar\u0131’nda Nur Yol\u00adda\u015f, Remzi Baba Restoran’da \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6ylerken, Remzi Baba’n\u0131n o\u011fluna a\u015f\u0131k olunca, bo\u015fand\u0131lar. Art\u0131k s\u0131k s\u0131k seyahat ediyordu, hi\u00e7bir yere ait olmama duygusu depre\u015fmi\u015fti. A\u015f\u0131r\u0131 alkol sonucu depresyona girerek, \u0130zmir Amatem’e yatt\u0131.” Sonra iki kez \u00c7apa T\u0131p Fak\u00fcltesi Hastanesi’nde ve 1991’de de Bak\u0131rk\u00f6y Ama\u00adtem’de tedavi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Bu biyografi \u00e7ok tuttu. Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f’\u0131 bulmaktan \u00f6te, adeta ‘ke\u015ffeden’ ne kadar paparazzi varsa, solu\u011fu B\u00fcy\u00fckada \u00e7\u00f6pl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde ald\u0131. (Halbuki o 1991’den beri Ada’da, bu halde ya\u015f\u0131yordu ve bu da 93’ten beri yayg\u0131n olarak biliniyordu. Ama toplum vicdan\u0131na terc\u00fcman oldu\u011funa vehmeden medya, ona, burnu biraz daha s\u00fcrts\u00fcn diye iki \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l opsiyon vermi\u015fti.)<\/p>\n

Art\u0131k akl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na gelmi\u015ftir kanaatiyle Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f’\u0131n \u00fcs\u00adt\u00fcne \u00e7ulland\u0131lar. Giderken yanlar\u0131na, “y\u0131llar \u00f6nce terk etti\u011fi” \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131, k\u0131z karde\u015fini, “iyile\u015ftikten sonra” \u015f\u00f6hret yapaca\u011f\u0131, Nur Yolda\u015f rol\u00fcnde eski \u00f6\u011frencilerinden birini, ayr\u0131ca i\u015f teklif\u00adleri ve -n’olur n’olmaz diyerek- iki de polis ald\u0131lar. Onu Ada’n\u0131n arkas\u0131ndaki Kur\u015fun Burnunda “defne yapraklar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7am kokular\u0131 aras\u0131nda u\u00e7u\u015ftu\u011fu bir ortamda, dalgalarla s\u00f6yle\u00ad\u015fir, mart\u0131larla yarenlik ederken buldular. En b\u00fcy\u00fck iste\u011fi, Or\u00adhan Veli’nin \u015fiirindeki \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn kendisinden esirgenmeme\u00adsiydi: ‘G\u00fcn olur al\u0131r ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 giderim \/ Denizden yeni \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f a\u011f\u00adlar\u0131n kokusunda \/ \u015eu ada senin bu ada benim yelkovan ku\u015fla\u00adr\u0131n\u0131n pe\u015fi s\u0131ra’ \u015fiirinde oldu\u011fu gibi. Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f, \u00e7al\u0131lar aras\u0131na saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bar\u0131na\u011f\u0131nda mutluydu. Ancak onu sevenler sefa\u00adlet i\u00e7inde ac\u0131lar \u00e7ekerek saklan\u0131\u015f\u0131na raz\u0131 olamazd\u0131.”<\/p>\n

Dr. Muzaffer Ku\u015fhan derhal adaya hareket etti. Polonez\u00adk\u00f6y’deki “g\u00f6rkemli Sa\u011fl\u0131k Merkezi’nde, onunla birlikte \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u00admaya karar vermi\u015fti. \u00d6nce sanat\u00e7\u0131 biraz z\u0131tla\u015ft\u0131, kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki kimdir bilmiyordu ki! Ku\u015fhan Sa\u011fl\u0131k Tesisleri! Etine dolgun, vakti yerinde konuklar burada y\u00fcz\u00fcyorlar, spor yap\u0131yorlar, yi\u00adyip i\u00e7melerini disiplin alt\u0131na al\u0131yorlar, b\u00f6ylece fazla kilolara el\u00adveda diyerek, tesisten ayr\u0131l\u0131yorlard\u0131. Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f, zay\u0131flaya\u00adrak sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na kavu\u015fma u\u011fra\u015f\u0131 verenlere \u00f6\u011flenleri yemek m\u00fczi\u00ad\u011fi, ak\u015famlar\u0131 dans m\u00fczi\u011fi \u00e7alacakt\u0131. Bu \u00e7ok cazip bir teklifti. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc tabaklar\u0131nda marul, maydanoz gibi ottan ba\u015fka yiyecek bulunmayan insanlar\u0131n hi\u00e7 olmazsa, m\u00fczi\u011fiyle ruhlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0131ka basa doyuracakt\u0131.”<\/p>\n

Onu normal hayata \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131lar. U\u00e7uklu\u011fun da bir s\u0131n\u0131r\u0131 var\u00add\u0131ra ikna ettiler. Ayr\u0131ca onu d\u00fcnyadan da haberdar ettiler: “Er\u00adg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f, bir kad\u0131n ba\u015fbakan\u0131m\u0131z (Tansu \u00c7iller) oldu\u011funu \u00fc\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce, Refah Partisi’nden Recep Tayyip Erdo\u011fan’\u0131n, \u0130stan\u00adbul B\u00fcy\u00fck\u015fehir Belediye Ba\u015fkan\u0131 se\u00e7ildi\u011fini ise o g\u00fcn paparaz\u00adzilerden \u00f6\u011frendi.”<\/p>\n

Kurtarma operasyonu 20 Ocak 1995 Cuma g\u00fcn\u00fc, soluk kesen, f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131, ayaz bir g\u00fcnde ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirildi. Reyting avc\u0131lar\u0131 B\u00fcy\u00fckada’ya denizden ve havadan kafileler halinde geldiler. Pata-pata helikopterler kald\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u0130\u015fte, halk\u0131n nabz\u0131n\u0131n yaka\u00adland\u0131\u011f\u0131 an bu and\u0131. Ka\u015flar\u0131 dal budaklanarak g\u00f6\u011fe y\u00f6nelmi\u015f, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 yapa\u011f\u0131 \u015feklinde savrulan, bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 k\u0131s\u0131k, \u00fcrkek, aln\u0131, y\u00fc\u00adz\u00fc k\u0131r\u0131\u015f k\u0131r\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6zlerinin alt\u0131nda torbac\u0131klar, sa\u011f \u015faka\u011f\u0131nda de\u00adrin bir yar\u0131k, kan oturmu\u015f, belki de darp izi, duda\u011f\u0131nda s\u00f6n\u00adm\u00fc\u015f sigaras\u0131yla hem\u015firenin kolunda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131p, helikoptere bir bini\u015fi var ki, yava\u015flat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00e7ekimlerle y\u00fczlerce kez g\u00f6sterildi televizyonlarda.<\/p>\n

“Sonra y\u0131kad\u0131lar, paklad\u0131lar, Bak\u0131rk\u00f6y Ruh ve Sinir Hasta\u00adl\u0131klar\u0131 Hastanesi’ne yat\u0131rd\u0131lar. Kamuoyuna yans\u0131yan haberler\u00adde, ‘tedavi kabul etmedi\u011fi’ a\u00e7\u0131kland\u0131.” Paparazziler bu defa Ba\u00adk\u0131rk\u00f6y’e h\u00fccum ettiler. Onu hastane demirba\u015f pijamas\u0131yla D\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fcnen Adam heykelinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde volta atarken, ko\u011fu\u015funda, ran\u00adzas\u0131na uzanm\u0131\u015f halde, hem\u015firenin uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 diazemi pa\u015fa pa\u015fa kabul ederken veya grup terapi s\u0131ras\u0131nda foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ekecek\u00adlerdi. Ancak \u00e7ok \u015fa\u015f\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 bir \u015fey oldu: Doktor a\u00e7\u0131klamas\u0131na g\u00f6re “Erg\u00fcder Bey’in tedaviyi gerektirecek hi\u00e7bir ciddi sorunu bu\u00adlunmuyordu. O tamamen bilin\u00e7li olarak \u015fimdiki ya\u015fam bi\u00e7imi\u00adni se\u00e7mi\u015f, genel bir sa\u011fl\u0131k taramas\u0131ndan sonra da hemen tabur\u00adcu edilmi\u015fti.”<\/p>\n

Paparazzilere bu defa Polonezk\u00f6y’\u00fcn yollar\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fckt\u00fc. Onu be\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131zl\u0131 Ku\u015fhan Sa\u011fl\u0131k Tesisleri’nde, billur sesli \u00f6\u011frencisiyle piyano ba\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclemek istiyorlard\u0131. Fazlas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcler: “Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f d\u00f6rt y\u0131ll\u0131k sakal\u0131n\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce kesmi\u015fti. Tam deklan\u015f\u00f6re basacaklarken, ‘durun t\u0131ra\u015f olay\u0131m, \u00f6yle \u00e7ekin’ de\u00addi. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcnl\u00fck sakal Yolda\u015f’\u0131 rahats\u0131z ediyordu. Bu de\u011fi\u015fimin nedenini sorduk. ‘On y\u0131ll\u0131k \u00f6\u011frencim y\u00fcz\u00fcnden, hocam \u015furas\u0131\u00adn\u0131 biraz keselim, buras\u0131n\u0131 biraz d\u00fczeltelim deyip duruyordu. Ben de toptan kestim, kurtuldum’. Y\u00fcz\u00fc, g\u00f6z\u00fc meydana \u00e7\u0131k\u00adm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, me\u011fer cam gibi mavi g\u00f6zleriyle ne kadar yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 bir adamm\u0131\u015f.”<\/p>\n

Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f ile “billur sesli \u00f6\u011frencisinin” daha \u015fimdi\u00adden bir\u00e7ok kaset ve klip teklifi ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da \u00f6\u011frendikten sonra, paparazzilerden en vurucu soru geliyor: “Burada m\u0131 yoksa adada m\u0131 daha mutlu oldu\u011funu soruyoruz; ‘\u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum, \u00fcretiyorum. Elbette burada daha mutluyum’ diyor. D\u00f6rt y\u0131ll\u0131k ada ka\u00e7ama\u011f\u0131, 40 y\u0131ll\u0131k m\u00fczisyenin p\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 ge\u00e7mi\u015fini perdeleyecek de\u011fil ya!”<\/p>\n

Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f Polonezk\u00f6y’de an\u0131lan tesiste ve T\u00fcnel’e gi\u00adderken Garibaldi adl\u0131 bir barda k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131ktan sonra tekrar adaya ka\u00e7t\u0131. Ancak bu haber ne medyada, ne de kamu\u00adoyunda hi\u00e7 ilgi g\u00f6rmedi. Art\u0131k pe\u015fini b\u0131rakt\u0131lar, onu kurtar\u00admaktan vazge\u00e7tiler, pes ettiler, ne halin varsa g\u00f6r dediler. O \u015fimdi \u00fc\u00e7 duvar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, \u00e7at\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc tek odal\u0131 evinin, Siv\u00adriada’ya bakan \u00f6n cephesindeki ince i\u015flerle me\u015fgul. Bizimle be\u00adraber ya\u015famak istemeyen birine ‘bakmak’ isterseniz, adan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn faytoncular\u0131 yerini biliyor, aman pazarl\u0131k edin, 600 bin li\u00adradan kuru\u015f fazlas\u0131n\u0131 kabul etmeyin. Bisikletle de gidebilirsi\u00adniz, y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek de, hem spor olur. \u0130nanmayacaks\u0131n\u0131z ama tabe\u00adlas\u0131 da var:<\/p>\n

“Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f’\u0131n yerine gider.”<\/p>\n

\u00dcmit Bayazo\u011flu, Uzun, \u0130nce Yolcular: 37 Portre, Yap\u0131 Kredi Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, 2004, s. 174-8.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Min\u00f6r ya\u015fam, ‘delirme’, Brecht’den kalanlar, d\u0131\u015farl\u0131kl\u0131 m\u00fczisyen, lin\u00e7, s\u00fcr\u00fcden ayr\u0131lma, \u015fiddet, romantizm, medya g\u00f6sterisi, turizm, bireysel kurtulu\u015f, sol melankoli, romansal hakikat, ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fam\u0131 ve daha nice anahtar kelimeler. “Dikkat: A\u015fa\u011f\u0131da okuyaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z yaz\u0131, m\u00fczisyen Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f’\u0131n B\u00fcy\u00fckada \u00e7\u00f6pl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden polis, zab\u0131ta, doktor, hem\u015fire ve haberciler taraf\u0131ndan derdest edilip, helikopterle ak\u0131l hastanesi\u00adne g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc anlat\u0131yor. Yaz\u0131da “t\u0131rnak i\u00e7inde” okuyaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z … Continue reading Bayazo\u011flu, Erg\u00fcder Yolda\u015f ve Normalle\u015fme \u00dczerine<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[33],"tags":[241,240,242],"class_list":["post-891","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-alinti","tag-erguder-yoldas","tag-umit-bayazoglu","tag-uzun-ince-yolcular"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9WYIs-en","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":344,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/10\/07\/cioran-uykusuzluk-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":891,"position":0},"title":"Cioran, Uykusuzluk \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"7 October 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Bu kadar \u015fahsi \u015feylerden s\u00f6z etmek \u00e7ok g\u00fc\u00e7. Ama madem ki uykusuzluktan bahsettiniz, ben gen\u00e7li\u011fimde uykusuzluk derdini ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f olman\u0131n o kadar da k\u00f6t\u00fc olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131yorum. Son derece ac\u0131 verici bir tecr\u00fcbedir bu; bir felakettir. Ama ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n anlayamayaca\u011f\u0131 \u015feyleri anlaman\u0131z\u0131 sa\u011flar: Uykusuzluk sizi canl\u0131lar\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r, insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda.\u00a0D\u0131\u015flanm\u0131\u015f\u00a0olursunuz. Ak\u015fam saat sekizde\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "al\u0131nt\u0131"","block_context":{"text":"al\u0131nt\u0131","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/alinti\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/ezeli-maglup-emile-cioran-201x300.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":349,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/10\/07\/nietzsche-filozof-entelektuel-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":891,"position":1},"title":"Nietzsche, Filozof ve Entelekt\u00fcel \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"7 October 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"G\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde filozofun geli\u015fmesinin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki tehlikeler asl\u0131nda o kadar katmerlidir ki, bu meyvenin olgunla\u015fabilece\u011finden ku\u015fku duyuyor insan. Bilimlerin kapsam\u0131 ve in\u015fa ettikleri kule muazzam b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc, b\u00f6ylelikle filozofun hen\u00fcz \u00e7\u0131rakl\u0131k a\u015famas\u0131nda yorulma ve herhangi bir yerde durup \"uzmanla\u015fma\" olas\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 da artt\u0131; \u00f6yle ki art\u0131k kendi y\u00fcksekli\u011fine, \u00fcstten bak\u0131\u015fa, genel bak\u0131\u015fa, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya bak\u0131\u015fa\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "al\u0131nt\u0131"","block_context":{"text":"al\u0131nt\u0131","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/alinti\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/iyinin-ve-kotunun-otesinde-friedrich-nietzsche-182x300.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":1140,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/03\/25\/jenks-altkultur-chicago-okulu-kaybedenler\/","url_meta":{"origin":891,"position":2},"title":"Jenks, Altk\u00fclt\u00fcr, Chicago Okulu & Kaybedenler","author":"yalpertem","date":"25 March 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"Kendi altk\u00fclt\u00fcr ilgimi sorgulamama yol a\u00e7an, so\u011fukkanl\u0131 bir genel perspektif ele\u015ftirisi. Pek de fark\u0131nda olmadan, (basitle\u015fmi\u015f bir) Chicago Okulu bak\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan do\u011fru romantik bir ilgi duyuyorum altk\u00fclt\u00fcrlere. Bir\u00e7oklar\u0131na hem \u00e7ok yak\u0131n hissederim, ortalar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fmekten de korkar\u0131m. B\u00f6ylesine net tan\u0131mlay\u0131nca, kategorile\u015ftirince o romantizm de yara al\u0131yor. Yine de belki akademinin anlayamayaca\u011f\u0131, onun\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "al\u0131nt\u0131"","block_context":{"text":"al\u0131nt\u0131","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/alinti\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/03\/chris-jenks-altkultur-toplumsalin-parcalanisi-195x300.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":6371,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2023\/07\/17\/boksi-i\/","url_meta":{"origin":891,"position":3},"title":"boksi I","author":"yalpertem","date":"17 July 2023","format":false,"excerpt":"\u00f6n\u00fcmde sa\u011f aya\u011f\u0131 yanm\u0131\u015f bir \u00fcst kollar\u0131na che d\u00f6vmesi yapm\u0131\u015f, \u00fc\u00e7 sivil kapal\u0131 alanlarda m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131yor m\u0131r m\u0131r alerta alerta anti fa\u015fista \u015fok \u015fok \u015fok, duvar ge\u00e7en g\u00fcne\u015f soka\u011f\u0131nda \u015fark\u0131larla yava\u015f\u00e7a almanca \u00f6\u011freniyoruz haftalar ge\u00e7mi\u015f, yeni bir g\u00fcn bu vagabond gemisinde sessiz bir bah\u00e7edeyiz greta'yla \u015fark\u0131lar dinliyoruz \u015fimdi zengin \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcyoruz ama\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "denemetin"","block_context":{"text":"denemetin","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/denemetin\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/07\/boksi-I.png?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":906,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/01\/25\/sayin-aydinlanmacilik-mitosundan-kesik-basa\/","url_meta":{"origin":891,"position":4},"title":"Say\u0131n, Ayd\u0131nlanmac\u0131l\u0131k Mitosundan Kesik Ba\u015fa","author":"yalpertem","date":"25 January 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Ayd\u0131nlanmac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir mitos, mitosun da bir Ayd\u0131nlanmac\u0131l\u0131k oldu\u011funu, di\u011fer canl\u0131larla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131r\u0131l\u0131nca insan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na bela olan dikilme cinneti y\u00fcz\u00fcnden Ayd\u0131nlanmac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n da mitosun da do\u011fal mek\u00e2n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda duyulan korkudan kaynakland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131yor Adorno ve Horkheimer. Ayd\u0131nlanmac\u0131l\u0131k mek\u00e2n\u0131 ele ge\u00e7irmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken, mitos onunla uyum sa\u011flamaya, ona benzemeye, ona d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor. Korkudan, korktu\u011funa egemen olmak\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "al\u0131nt\u0131"","block_context":{"text":"al\u0131nt\u0131","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/alinti\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/%C3%B6l%C3%BCm-terbiyesi-zeynep-say%C4%B1n-199x300.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":1444,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/05\/12\/kristeva-aci-dehset-celinede-anlati\/","url_meta":{"origin":891,"position":5},"title":"Kristeva, Ac\u0131\/Deh\u015fet – C\u00e9line’de Anlat\u0131","author":"yalpertem","date":"12 May 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"Bug\u00fcn \"Korku\" temal\u0131 4. Siyasal Psikoloji Konferans\u0131'na gidince hemen akl\u0131ma sevgili Kristeva geldi, bir a\u00e7\u0131p bakt\u0131m. C\u00e9line \u00fczerinden korku ve benzeri duygularla anlat\u0131y\u0131 ve edebiyat\u0131 kesi\u015ftirdi\u011fi bu pasaj\u0131 buldum. Kristeva'y\u0131, par\u00e7a par\u00e7a okuduk\u00e7a sars\u0131lsam ve hayran olsam da, uzun s\u00fcreli okumaya, metinlerini tamamlamaya kapasitem yetmiyor, ba\u011flam\u0131ndan kopuveriyorum, bo\u015f g\u00f6zlerle m\u00fcrekkebe\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "al\u0131nt\u0131"","block_context":{"text":"al\u0131nt\u0131","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/alinti\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/05\/julia-kristeva-korkunun-g%C3%BC%C3%A7leri-186x300.png?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]}],"amp_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/891","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=891"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/891\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6110,"href":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/891\/revisions\/6110"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=891"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=891"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=891"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}