{"id":791,"date":"2018-01-05T21:36:39","date_gmt":"2018-01-05T19:36:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/?p=791"},"modified":"2018-01-07T10:53:47","modified_gmt":"2018-01-07T08:53:47","slug":"bicakci-babaanne-ile-yuruyus-ve-yavaslik-uzerine","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/01\/05\/bicakci-babaanne-ile-yuruyus-ve-yavaslik-uzerine\/","title":{"rendered":"B\u0131\u00e7akc\u0131, Babaanne ile Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f ve Yava\u015fl\u0131k \u00dczerine"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"792\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/01\/05\/bicakci-babaanne-ile-yuruyus-ve-yavaslik-uzerine\/uyku-sersemi-min\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/uyku-sersemi-min.jpg?fit=579%2C900&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"579,900\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"uyku-sersemi-min\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/uyku-sersemi-min.jpg?fit=579%2C900&amp;ssl=1\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-792 alignleft\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/uyku-sersemi-min.jpg?resize=193%2C300\" alt=\"\" width=\"193\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/uyku-sersemi-min.jpg?resize=193%2C300&amp;ssl=1 193w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/uyku-sersemi-min.jpg?w=579&amp;ssl=1 579w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 193px) 100vw, 193px\" \/>&#8220;Geleneksel Pazartesi Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fleri. Babaannemle. Son be\u015f alt\u0131 ayd\u0131r hemen her pazartesi. Akl\u0131n alabilece\u011fi, ad\u0131m\u0131n at\u0131labilece\u011fi, insan\u0131n ilerleyebilece\u011fi en yava\u015f bi\u00e7imde. Olabilecek en a\u011f\u0131r tempoda. Genellikle yan yana. Bazen el ele, bazen kol kola. Evinin hemen devam\u0131ndaki Caddebostan sahil yolunda. Normalde yedi dakikada y\u00fcr\u00fcyece\u011fim mesafeyi bazen bir, bazen bir bu\u00e7uk saatte kat ederek. Hep duracakm\u0131\u015f gibi olup hi\u00e7 durmadan. Genellikle konu\u015fmadan. Bir t\u00fcr terapi. \u00c7\u0131t \u00e7\u0131karmadan, a\u015f\u0131r\u0131 yava\u015f y\u00fcr\u00fcme seans\u0131. Yolun yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n, \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc iki tur sorgulatacak kadar yo\u011fun oldu\u011fu.<\/p>\n<p>Dedemin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden birka\u00e7 y\u0131l sonra, y\u0131k\u0131m karar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in bu yeni, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck daireye ta\u015f\u0131nmak zorunda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 babaannem. Al\u0131\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve sevemedi\u011fi bu evde on be\u015f y\u0131ld\u0131r, temizlik ve yemek yapan yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131yla ya\u015f\u0131yor. Son birka\u00e7 y\u0131ld\u0131r benim d\u0131\u015f\u0131mda kimseyi hat\u0131rlam\u0131yor, tan\u0131m\u0131yor. Art\u0131k beni de unutuyor arada. Bazen ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 unutuyor &#8220;Okuyor musun sen \u015fimdi?&#8221; diye soruyor. &#8220;Babaanne ne okulu, okul biteli ka\u00e7 y\u0131l oldu,&#8221; diyorum. Tepki vermiyor. Bazen ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m de\u011fil, hepten beni unutuyor. Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki anlam \u00e7ekilip gidiyor. G\u00f6zleri donukla\u015f\u0131yor. Babaannemin i\u00e7inden ba\u015fka biri bak\u0131yor. \u00dcst\u00fcn yetenekli bir oyuncu gibi, saniyeler i\u00e7inde apayr\u0131 biri oluyor. &#8220;Sen kimin o\u011fluydun?&#8221; diye soruyor. O zaman da ben tepki veremiyorum. Zaten k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra beni unuttu\u011fu gibi, sorusunu da unutuyor. Ortada ne soru kal\u0131yor ne cevap. Y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye devam ediyoruz.<\/p>\n<p>Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz iyi ge\u00e7iyordu bu sefer. Babaannemin beni de\u011fil, ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 unuttu\u011fu g\u00fcnlerdendi. Keyfi yerinde say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00fcl\u00fcmser gibi ifadesi mutlulu\u011funun g\u00f6stergesi miydi, yoksa g\u00fcne\u015f rahats\u0131z etti\u011fi i\u00e7in y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc buru\u015fturmas\u0131n\u0131n sonucu muydu, belli de\u011fildi. Konu\u015fmayla desteklenmedi\u011fi i\u00e7in yorgun y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ifadeler belirsizdi.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\">&#8220;Hava g\u00fczelmi\u015f bug\u00fcn, de\u011fil mi babaanne?&#8221;<br \/>\n&#8220;G\u00fczel ya. \u00c7ok g\u00fczel hem de. Hangi ayday\u0131z biz \u015fimdi?&#8221;&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Hakan B\u0131\u00e7akc\u0131, Uyku Sersemi, \u0130leti\u015fim Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, 2017, s.47-8<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;Geleneksel Pazartesi Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fleri. Babaannemle. Son be\u015f alt\u0131 ayd\u0131r hemen her pazartesi. Akl\u0131n alabilece\u011fi, ad\u0131m\u0131n at\u0131labilece\u011fi, insan\u0131n ilerleyebilece\u011fi en yava\u015f bi\u00e7imde. Olabilecek en a\u011f\u0131r tempoda. Genellikle yan yana. Bazen el ele, bazen kol kola. Evinin hemen devam\u0131ndaki Caddebostan sahil yolunda. Normalde yedi dakikada y\u00fcr\u00fcyece\u011fim mesafeyi bazen bir, bazen bir bu\u00e7uk saatte kat ederek. Hep duracakm\u0131\u015f gibi &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/01\/05\/bicakci-babaanne-ile-yuruyus-ve-yavaslik-uzerine\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">B\u0131\u00e7akc\u0131, Babaanne ile Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f ve Yava\u015fl\u0131k \u00dczerine<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[8,30],"tags":[213,214,215],"class_list":["post-791","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-roman","category-yurumek","tag-hakan-bicakci","tag-uyku-sersemi","tag-yaslilik"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9WYIs-cL","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":228,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/08\/31\/kristeva-modern-insan-ve-ruh-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":791,"position":0},"title":"Kristeva, Modern \u0130nsan ve Ruh \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"31 August 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Kendimize bir ruh olu\u015fturmak i\u00e7in gerekli ne zaman\u0131m\u0131z ne de yerimiz var. 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