{"id":521,"date":"2017-11-18T15:43:48","date_gmt":"2017-11-18T13:43:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/?p=521"},"modified":"2017-11-18T15:43:48","modified_gmt":"2017-11-18T13:43:48","slug":"handke-katlanilamazlik-deneyim-uzerine","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/11\/18\/handke-katlanilamazlik-deneyim-uzerine\/","title":{"rendered":"Handke, Katlan\u0131lamazl\u0131k ve Deneyim \u00dczerine"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"“Kasabaya d\u00f6n\u00fcnce bir kafeye oturdu Bloch ve k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t oynayanlar\u0131 seyretmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Arkas\u0131na oturdu\u011fu oyuncuyla aras\u0131nda tart\u0131\u015fma \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. \u00d6b\u00fcr oyuncular Bloch’tan \u00e7ekip gitmesini istedi. Bloch arka odaya ge\u00e7ti. Diya g\u00f6sterili bir konferans veriliyordu. Bir s\u00fcre bakt\u0131. G\u00fcneydo\u011fu Asya’daki misyoner hastaneleri \u00fczerine bir konferanst\u0131 bu. Y\u00fcksek sesle lafa kar\u0131\u015fan Bloch, izleyicilerle at\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 gene. Arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n

D\u00f6n\u00fcp gene salona girmeyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc; ama girerse s\u00f6yleyebilece\u011fi hi\u00e7bir \u015fey gelmiyordu akl\u0131na. \u0130kinci kafeye gitti. Orada vantilat\u00f6r\u00fcn kapat\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 istedi. “Ayr\u0131ca \u0131\u015f\u0131k da \u00e7ok \u00f6lg\u00fcn” dedi. Garson k\u0131z yan\u0131na oturmu\u015ftu, bir s\u00fcre sonra konu k\u0131z\u0131n omzuna dolayacakm\u0131\u015f gibi yapt\u0131; k\u0131z Bloch’un niyetinin ger\u00e7ek olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlay\u0131p, daha kendisi niyetinin ger\u00e7ek olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 belli etmeye f\u0131rsat bulmadan, geriye yasland\u0131. Bloch kolunu ger\u00e7ekten k\u0131z\u0131n omzuna dolayarak hatas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fczeltmek istedi ama beriki kalkm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile. Bloch da kalkmaya davran\u0131nca k\u0131z uzakla\u015ft\u0131. \u015eimdi Bloch’un, k\u0131z\u0131n arkas\u0131ndan gitmek ister gibi yapmas\u0131 gerekirdi. Ama bu kadar\u0131 fazlayd\u0131 art\u0131k; oradan ayr\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

Oteldeki odas\u0131nda \u015fafaktan az \u00f6nce uyand\u0131. Durup dururken \u00e7evresindeki her \u015fey bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da katlan\u0131lmaz oluvermi\u015fti. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc: Belli bir anda, \u015fimdi, \u015fafaktan az \u00f6nce her \u015feyin bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da katlan\u0131lmaz olmas\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131 uyanmas\u0131n\u0131n as\u0131l sebebi? \u00dczerinde yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015filte i\u00e7ine \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, dolaplar, \u015fifonyer \u00e7ok uza\u011f\u0131ndaki duvarlar\u0131n berisinde duruyordu, \u00fczerindeki tavan katlan\u0131lmaz bir y\u00fckseklikteydi. Lo\u015f oda, d\u0131\u015far\u0131da koridor ve hepsinden \u00f6nce d\u0131\u015far\u0131s\u0131, sokak o kadar sessizdi ki dayan\u0131l\u0131r gibi de\u011fildi. \u015eiddetli bir bulant\u0131 kaplad\u0131 i\u00e7ini. Hemen lavaboya kustu. Bir s\u00fcre s\u00fcrd\u00fc kusmas\u0131, rahatlama getirmeden. Gene yata\u011f\u0131na uzand\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f de\u011fildi, tersine, her \u015feyi katlan\u0131lmaz bir denge i\u00e7inde g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu. Pencereden e\u011filip caddenin ucuna kadar bakmas\u0131 i\u015fe yaramad\u0131. Bir branda bezi sakin sakin duruyordu park edilmi\u015f araban\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde. \u0130\u00e7eride, odan\u0131n duvar\u0131ndaki iki su borusunu g\u00f6rd\u00fc, paralel gidiyorlard\u0131, yukar\u0131da duvarla, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da d\u00f6\u015femeyle kesiliyorlard\u0131. G\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc her \u015fey en katlan\u0131lmaz bi\u00e7imde kesilmi\u015f ve s\u0131n\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kusmak i\u00e7in ferahlatmam\u0131\u015f, tersine daha da s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sanki bir levye kendisini g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc her \u015feyden kan\u0131rta kan\u0131rta ay\u0131r\u0131yordu, daha do\u011frusu, \u00e7evresindeki nesneler kendisinde ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, havaya kald\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Dolap, lavabo, seyahat \u00e7antas\u0131, kap\u0131: Ancak \u015fimdi fark\u0131nda var\u0131yordu; \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131nca bir zora u\u011fram\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na, g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc her nesneye uyan kelimeyi akl\u0131ndan ge\u00e7irmeden edemiyordu. Her nesnenin g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc hemen nesnenin ad\u0131 izliyordu. Sandalye, elbise ask\u0131s\u0131, anahtar. Ortal\u0131\u011fa erkenden b\u00f6yle bir sessizli\u011fin \u00e7\u00f6kmesi, g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcler dikkatini art\u0131k da\u011f\u0131tmas\u0131n diyeydi; her yer bir yandan b\u00f6yle, \u00e7evresindeki nesneleri g\u00f6rebilece\u011fi kadar ayd\u0131nl\u0131k, \u00f6te yandan b\u00f6yle, hi\u00e7bir g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcn\u00fcn dikkatini da\u011f\u0131tamayaca\u011f\u0131 kadar sessiz oldu\u011fundan nesneleri sanki kendi reklamlar\u0131ym\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu. Ger\u00e7ekten, bulant\u0131s\u0131 kimi zaman, uyuyana kadar tekrarlamadan ya da m\u0131r\u0131ldanmadan edemedi\u011fi belli reklam spotlar\u0131ndan, moda melodilerden ya da milli mar\u015flardan duydu\u011fu i\u011frentiye benzer bir i\u011frentiydi. H\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131k tutmu\u015f gibi nefesini tuttu. Sonra nefes al\u0131nca ayn\u0131 \u015fey gene ba\u015flad\u0131. Yeniden tuttu nefesini. Bir s\u00fcre sonra i\u015fe yarad\u0131 bu, uykuya dald\u0131.”<\/p>\n

Peter Handke, Kalecinin Penalt\u0131 An\u0131ndaki Endi\u015fesi, \u00e7ev. Tevfik Duran, Ayr\u0131nt\u0131 Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, 2016 [1970], 4. bas\u0131m, s. 50-2.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

“Kasabaya d\u00f6n\u00fcnce bir kafeye oturdu Bloch ve k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t oynayanlar\u0131 seyretmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Arkas\u0131na oturdu\u011fu oyuncuyla aras\u0131nda tart\u0131\u015fma \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. \u00d6b\u00fcr oyuncular Bloch’tan \u00e7ekip gitmesini istedi. Bloch arka odaya ge\u00e7ti. Diya g\u00f6sterili bir konferans veriliyordu. Bir s\u00fcre bakt\u0131. G\u00fcneydo\u011fu Asya’daki misyoner hastaneleri \u00fczerine bir konferanst\u0131 bu. Y\u00fcksek sesle lafa kar\u0131\u015fan Bloch, izleyicilerle at\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 gene. Arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. … Continue reading Handke, Katlan\u0131lamazl\u0131k ve Deneyim \u00dczerine<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[33,8],"tags":[170,85,9,78],"class_list":["post-521","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-alinti","category-roman","tag-bulanti","tag-kalecinin-penalti-anindaki-endisesi","tag-peter-handke","tag-sikinti"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9WYIs-8p","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":301,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/09\/23\/handke-yorgunluk-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":521,"position":0},"title":"Handke, Yorgunluk \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"23 September 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Bloch yoruluyordu, yorulduk\u00e7a her \u015feyi bir o kadar daha a\u00e7\u0131k se\u00e7ik alg\u0131lar, birini \u00f6b\u00fcr\u00fcnden o kadar iyi ay\u0131rt eder oldu. 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