{"id":36,"date":"2016-10-25T23:18:37","date_gmt":"2016-10-25T20:18:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/?p=36"},"modified":"2016-10-25T23:18:37","modified_gmt":"2016-10-25T20:18:37","slug":"selimin-tutkusu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2016\/10\/25\/selimin-tutkusu\/","title":{"rendered":"Selim’in Tutkusu"},"content":{"rendered":"

Rahmetli Selim Abi\u2019ye, bal\u0131k merakl\u0131s\u0131 dostlar\u0131 ince davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan dolay\u0131 Misina Selim derlerdi. Bal\u0131k tutmay\u0131 hi\u00e7 sevmedi. Fakat bir s\u00fcredir misina tutmaya te\u015fneydi. \u00d6mr\u00fc boyunca evlilik y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc bile takmam\u0131\u015f, insanlar\u0131n tak\u0131lar\u0131na dikkat kesilmemi\u015f olsa da, bir haftad\u0131r r\u00fcyalar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcsleyen kolyeyi dizebilmek i\u00e7in u\u011fra\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Doktor raporuyla sendikadaki g\u00f6revinden be\u015f g\u00fcn izin ald\u0131. G\u00fcnd\u00fczleri yerel antika ve sosyete pazarlar\u0131n\u0131 gezdi, \u00fcreticiyle bizzat g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Pazardakiler tezgahlar\u0131 toplarken, yard\u0131m etti, malzemeyi bedavaya getirdi. G\u00fcne\u015f bat\u0131nca, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n masa lambas\u0131n\u0131 balkona ta\u015f\u0131y\u0131p ad\u0131n\u0131 o g\u00fcn \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fi ta\u015flar\u0131 yirmi metrelik misinas\u0131na dizerek kolyeler yapt\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Mahalle e\u015fraf\u0131 bu hevesiyle dalga ge\u00e7ti\u011finden, yumruk yumru\u011fa kavgaya bile tutu\u015ftu.\u00a0On be\u015f y\u0131ll\u0131k kom\u015fusu Cemil\u2019in ka\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yard\u0131 ama \u015fimdi sorsan\u0131z hat\u0131rlamaz, akl\u0131 ta\u015flarda. Yanl\u0131\u015f ba\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131, g\u00f6z\u00fcne ho\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen her otantik ta\u015fta b\u00fcy\u00fck bir h\u0131n\u00e7la misinay\u0131 kesip at\u0131yor, masay\u0131 da\u011f\u0131t\u0131yor, dizmeye sil ba\u015ftan ba\u015fl\u0131yordu. Hayali, kursun son haftas\u0131na elinde ba\u015fyap\u0131t\u0131yla gidebilmekti.<\/span><\/p>\n

Son gecenin sabah\u0131nda, ezan kulaklar\u0131nda, kehribar, di\u015fbudak beyaz\u0131 ve antrasit grisini pe\u015fi s\u0131ra koydu. Kolyeden \u00e7ok \u00e7ember \u015feklinde bir sigaraya benziyordu. Misinas\u0131ndan di\u015fiyle bir nefes \u00e7ekip a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r s\u0131ralad\u0131. \u00c7irkin \u015fekle bakarak kahkahay\u0131 patlatt\u0131, arad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bulmu\u015ftu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Kahverengi tak\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 giydi, malzemelerini po\u015fetlere, kolyesiniyse bel \u00e7antas\u0131na dikkatlice yerle\u015ftirdi, kursun yolunu tuttu. Plastik tezgah\u0131n\u0131 bu kolyeye g\u00f6re dekore edebilmek i\u00e7in erkenden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

O s\u0131rada Cemil\u2019in gece boyunca rak\u0131 \u015fi\u015fesini bo\u015falt\u0131p, bal\u0131k kovas\u0131n\u0131 dolduramadan eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, dala\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131 dura\u011f\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde rastla\u015facaklar\u0131n\u0131 bilseydi, yine de erken \u00e7\u0131kar m\u0131yd\u0131? Bence \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc akl\u0131 sadece ta\u015flardayd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

—o—<\/p>\n

T\u00fcrk\u00e7e \u00f6\u011fretmeni zorlukla okudu\u011fu el yaz\u0131s\u0131ndan kafas\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p kravat\u0131n\u0131 di\u015fleyen \u00f6\u011frencisine bakt\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cYavrum, kuzum, bu ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131\u2026 Neden b\u00f6yle \u015feyler yaz\u0131p arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7antalar\u0131na koyuyorsun? Bak s\u0131n\u0131fta kimse seninle konu\u015fmuyor art\u0131k, korkuyor \u00e7ocuklar. Ka\u00e7 kere okuldan at\u0131lman\u0131 istedi veliler, ben durdum kar\u015f\u0131lar\u0131nda. Ama benim g\u00fcc\u00fcm de bir yere kadar yeter. Fatih arkada\u015f\u0131n mektubunu annesine okutmu\u015f. Daha k\u0131rk\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131 kocas\u0131n\u0131n. Okurken bay\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. Neden dalga ge\u00e7iyorsun insanlar\u0131n ac\u0131lar\u0131yla? Tekrar ya\u015fat\u0131yorsun bu anlar\u0131 onlara?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00c7ocuk kravat\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Silgisini kay\u0131n a\u011fac\u0131ndan yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f s\u0131ras\u0131na s\u00fcrterken a\u011flamakl\u0131 sesiyle kekeledi:<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cDalga ge\u00e7mek istemiyorum \u00f6\u011fretmenim. Onlar\u0131 anl\u0131yorum, onlarla konu\u015fmak istiyorum.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Rahmetli Selim Abi\u2019ye, bal\u0131k merakl\u0131s\u0131 dostlar\u0131 ince davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan dolay\u0131 Misina Selim derlerdi. Bal\u0131k tutmay\u0131 hi\u00e7 sevmedi. Fakat bir s\u00fcredir misina tutmaya te\u015fneydi. \u00d6mr\u00fc boyunca evlilik y\u00fcz\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc bile takmam\u0131\u015f, insanlar\u0131n tak\u0131lar\u0131na dikkat kesilmemi\u015f olsa da, bir haftad\u0131r r\u00fcyalar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcsleyen kolyeyi dizebilmek i\u00e7in u\u011fra\u015f\u0131yordu. Doktor raporuyla sendikadaki g\u00f6revinden be\u015f g\u00fcn izin ald\u0131. G\u00fcnd\u00fczleri yerel antika ve sosyete … Continue reading Selim’in Tutkusu<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[14,15],"class_list":["post-36","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-denemetin","tag-aristocu-anlati","tag-brechtci-anlati"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9WYIs-A","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":1444,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/05\/12\/kristeva-aci-dehset-celinede-anlati\/","url_meta":{"origin":36,"position":0},"title":"Kristeva, Ac\u0131\/Deh\u015fet – C\u00e9line’de Anlat\u0131","author":"yalpertem","date":"12 May 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"Bug\u00fcn \"Korku\" temal\u0131 4. 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