{"id":301,"date":"2017-09-23T21:07:52","date_gmt":"2017-09-23T18:07:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/?p=301"},"modified":"2017-09-24T10:52:23","modified_gmt":"2017-09-24T07:52:23","slug":"handke-yorgunluk-uzerine","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/09\/23\/handke-yorgunluk-uzerine\/","title":{"rendered":"Handke, Yorgunluk \u00dczerine"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"“Bloch yoruluyordu, yorulduk\u00e7a her \u015feyi bir o kadar daha a\u00e7\u0131k se\u00e7ik alg\u0131lar, birini \u00f6b\u00fcr\u00fcnden o kadar iyi ay\u0131rt eder oldu. Kap\u0131 birisi \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca hep a\u00e7\u0131k kald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, hep birinin kalk\u0131p kap\u0131y\u0131 kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu. O kadar yorgundu ki her nesneyi kendi ba\u015f\u0131na, en ba\u015fta da d\u0131\u015f \u00e7izgilerini g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu, sanki nesnelerin sadece d\u0131\u015f \u00e7izgileri varm\u0131\u015f gibi. Her \u015feyi dolays\u0131zca g\u00f6r\u00fcyor, i\u015fitiyordu, eskiden oldu\u011fu gibi kelimelere \u00e7evirme gere\u011fini duymadan ya da zaten sadece kelimelerden, kelime oyunlar\u0131ndan ibaretmi\u015fler gibi almaks\u0131z\u0131n. Kendisine her \u015feyin do\u011fal geldi\u011fi bir durumdayd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Daha sonra i\u015fletmeci kad\u0131n yan\u0131na oturdu, Bloch da kolunu \u00f6yle bir do\u011fall\u0131kla onun omzuna dolad\u0131 ki, kad\u0131n fark\u0131na bile varmam\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Otomatik pikaba, hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yokmu\u015f gibi, birka\u00e7 para att\u0131, i\u015fletmeci kad\u0131nla da \u00f6ylesine dans etti. Kad\u0131n\u0131n, kendisine bir \u015fey dedi\u011finde hep ad\u0131n\u0131 da s\u00f6yledi\u011fini fark etti.<\/p>\n

Garson k\u0131z\u0131n bir eliyle \u00f6b\u00fcr elini tuttu\u011funu g\u00f6rmekten bir \u015fey \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yordu art\u0131k, kal\u0131n perdelerin de bir \u00f6zelli\u011fi kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131; \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p gidenlerin gittik\u00e7e artmas\u0131ysa do\u011fald\u0131. Rahatl\u0131k vericiydi, d\u0131\u015far\u0131da, caddede hacet g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerini, sonra yola koyulduklar\u0131n\u0131 i\u015fitmek.<\/p>\n

Salon sessizle\u015fti, \u00f6yle ki otomatik pikapta \u00e7al\u0131nan plaklar a\u00e7\u0131k se\u00e7ik i\u015fitilir oldu. Plaklar\u0131n aras\u0131ndaki arada al\u00e7ak sesle konu\u015fuluyor ya da neredeyse soluklar tutuluyordu; bir sonraki plak ba\u015flay\u0131nca rahatl\u0131yordu insanlar. Bloch bu olanlardan, s\u00fcrekli tekrarlanan \u015feylermi\u015f\u00e7esine s\u00f6z edilebilece\u011fi duygusuna kap\u0131ld\u0131; “bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn ak\u0131\u015f\u0131” diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, insan\u0131n kartpostallara yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir \u015fey, “Ak\u015famleyin birahanede oturulup plak dinleniyor.” Yorgunlu\u011fu ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e art\u0131yordu, d\u0131\u015far\u0131daysa elmalar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu a\u011fa\u00e7lardan.”<\/p>\n

Peter Handke, Kalecinin Penalt\u0131 An\u0131ndaki Endi\u015fesi, \u00e7ev. Tevfik Duran, Ayr\u0131nt\u0131 Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, 2016 [1970], 4. bas\u0131m, s. 94.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

“Bloch yoruluyordu, yorulduk\u00e7a her \u015feyi bir o kadar daha a\u00e7\u0131k se\u00e7ik alg\u0131lar, birini \u00f6b\u00fcr\u00fcnden o kadar iyi ay\u0131rt eder oldu. Kap\u0131 birisi \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca hep a\u00e7\u0131k kald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, hep birinin kalk\u0131p kap\u0131y\u0131 kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu. O kadar yorgundu ki her nesneyi kendi ba\u015f\u0131na, en ba\u015fta da d\u0131\u015f \u00e7izgilerini g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu, sanki nesnelerin sadece d\u0131\u015f \u00e7izgileri varm\u0131\u015f gibi. Her \u015feyi … Continue reading Handke, Yorgunluk \u00dczerine<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[33,8],"tags":[85,9,86],"class_list":["post-301","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-alinti","category-roman","tag-kalecinin-penalti-anindaki-endisesi","tag-peter-handke","tag-yorgunluk"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9WYIs-4R","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":521,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/11\/18\/handke-katlanilamazlik-deneyim-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":301,"position":0},"title":"Handke, Katlan\u0131lamazl\u0131k ve Deneyim \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"18 November 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Kasabaya d\u00f6n\u00fcnce bir kafeye oturdu Bloch ve k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t oynayanlar\u0131 seyretmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. 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