{"id":279,"date":"2017-09-04T20:31:21","date_gmt":"2017-09-04T17:31:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/?p=279"},"modified":"2017-09-04T20:31:21","modified_gmt":"2017-09-04T17:31:21","slug":"gecgin-sokak-insani-uzerine","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/09\/04\/gecgin-sokak-insani-uzerine\/","title":{"rendered":"Ge\u00e7gin, Sokak \u0130nsan\u0131 ve S\u0131n\u0131r \u00dczerine"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"“O s\u0131ra az \u00f6temde \u015eair denen herifi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Duvar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne t\u00fcnemi\u015f, iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm oturuyordu. Berbat g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Y\u00fcz\u00fc dayak yemi\u015f gibiydi -ama elbette yedi\u011fi darbeler, yumruklar, tekmeler g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez t\u00fcrdendi- \u00e7evresi kararm\u0131\u015f, altlar\u0131 morarm\u0131\u015f \u00e7apakl\u0131 g\u00f6zleri neredeyse kapanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, g\u00fcl\u00fcyormu\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na yanlara do\u011fru gerilmi\u015f, kas\u0131lm\u0131\u015f a\u011fz\u0131nda di\u015f yoktu, sa\u00e7\u0131 sakal\u0131 kaskat\u0131, \u00fcst\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131 berbat durumdayd\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yam\u0131yormu\u015f gibi \u00f6ne do\u011fru d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Sokakta \u015fu hayalet gibi dola\u015fan yar\u0131 deli evsizlerden fark\u0131 kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, aylard\u0131r sokakta olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Beni g\u00f6r\u00fcr korkusuyla kayk\u0131l\u0131p \u00f6n\u00fcmde oturan ki\u015finin s\u0131rt\u0131na gizlendim. Ger\u00e7i bir \u015feyi g\u00f6recek, g\u00f6rse bile fark edecek halde de\u011fildi. Art\u0131k b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcyle rastlant\u0131lar\u0131n eline kalm\u0131\u015f gibiydi, biri s\u00f6zgelimi onu oradan itekleyip kald\u0131rmasa \u00f6lene kadar orada oturabilirdi. Benden bir fark\u0131 var m\u0131yd\u0131 ger\u00e7ekte (do\u011frusu ona bakarken kendimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum) beni b\u00f6yle bir durumdan koruyan ne vard\u0131 ki, evet, b\u00f6yle olabilirdim bu hale d\u00fc\u015fmek bana \u00e7ok uzak g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu. Korkutucuydu bu, ama engellemek olanakl\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131? Dikkatin yitimi?\u00a0<\/em>Nedir bu, asl\u0131nda ki\u015finin g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc yitirmesi de\u011fil mi? Az sonra kalkt\u0131, kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde karn\u0131 geriye yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131, o y\u00fcr\u00fcrken insanlar iki yana a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yordu. \u00d6n\u00fcmden ge\u00e7ip a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya y\u00f6neldi. Arkas\u0131ndan bakt\u0131m. Pantolonunun k\u0131\u00e7 taraf\u0131 kocamak, koyu, belirgin bir lekeyle kapl\u0131yd\u0131. Acaba diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, alt\u0131na m\u0131 etmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131? Belki, hem neden olmas\u0131n, belki s\u0131n\u0131r alt\u0131n\u0131 tutup tutmamayla birlikte \u00e7iziliyordu. Alt\u0131na etmeye ba\u015flamakla insan yasadan, kurallardan, dilden, k\u0131saca insan d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan (s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fc s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n i\u00e7ine ederek) ge\u00e7ip belirsiz bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015fa do\u011fru gidiyordu. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131lara do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc, arkas\u0131ndan kapanan kalabal\u0131kta kayboldu. Ben de kalk\u0131p Erdal’a do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye koyuldum. Y\u00fcr\u00fcrken h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u015eair’i d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. Neden \u015eair diyorlard\u0131 bu adama, bilmiyordum, belki bir zamanlar \u015fiir karal\u0131yordu da ondan, ger\u00e7ek ad\u0131n\u0131 da bilmiyordum, belki kendisi de kullanm\u0131yordu art\u0131k, gere\u011fi kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Tek bildi\u011fim buraya ba\u015fka yerden okumak i\u00e7in geldi\u011fiydi, ama ne okuyordu, ne zaman b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bilmiyordum. Ben onu ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde de dilenci gibi dola\u015f\u0131yordu. Demek \u015fimdi de alt\u0131na ediyordu! Evet, bir s\u0131n\u0131r vard\u0131. Yaln\u0131zca tarih olaylar\u0131n\u0131n de\u011fil her g\u00fcnk\u00fc i\u00e7ler ac\u0131s\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131n sefaletiyle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, savmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bir s\u0131n\u0131r olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Kula\u011fa ne kadar soyut gelse de bu s\u0131n\u0131ra insan<\/em>‘dan ba\u015fka bir s\u00f6zc\u00fck bulam\u0131yorum. Sanki ge\u00e7ilmemesi gereken bu s\u0131n\u0131r insan\u0131n kendisi olmu\u015ftu. Bir yerden sonra insan bitiyordu. Ruhu bedene ba\u011flayan \u00e7apa kopuyordu. Ruh, ipini, gev\u015fek\u00e7e tutan bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun gezdirdi\u011fi balon gibi bir kar\u0131\u015f yukar\u0131da geziniyordu. Ruhunu kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u0131rada unutmu\u015ftu s\u00f6zgelimi, ya da belki dalg\u0131n, \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n, uyurgezer ruh g\u00f6vdesini orada unutmu\u015ftu; ruh \u00f6nden gidiyor, g\u00f6vde a\u011f\u0131r, uyu\u015fmu\u015f, unutulmu\u015f, kur\u015fun bir heykel gibi orada kalakalm\u0131\u015f. Ya da belki k\u00e2h o, k\u00e2h \u00f6teki birbirlerini unutup ayr\u0131 ayr\u0131 eyliyorlard\u0131, ama b\u00f6yle ne kadar zaman yeniden bulabilirlerdi ki birbirlerini? Elbette bir g\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcne kaybolacak, ip kopacak, ruh y\u00fckselip gidecekti.”<\/p>\n

Ayhan Ge\u00e7gin, Gen\u00e7lik D\u00fc\u015f\u00fc, Metis Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, 2013 [2006], 2. bas\u0131m, s. 212-3.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

“O s\u0131ra az \u00f6temde \u015eair denen herifi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Duvar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne t\u00fcnemi\u015f, iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm oturuyordu. Berbat g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Y\u00fcz\u00fc dayak yemi\u015f gibiydi -ama elbette yedi\u011fi darbeler, yumruklar, tekmeler g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez t\u00fcrdendi- \u00e7evresi kararm\u0131\u015f, altlar\u0131 morarm\u0131\u015f \u00e7apakl\u0131 g\u00f6zleri neredeyse kapanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, g\u00fcl\u00fcyormu\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na yanlara do\u011fru gerilmi\u015f, kas\u0131lm\u0131\u015f a\u011fz\u0131nda di\u015f yoktu, sa\u00e7\u0131 sakal\u0131 kaskat\u0131, \u00fcst\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131 berbat durumdayd\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yam\u0131yormu\u015f gibi \u00f6ne … Continue reading Ge\u00e7gin, Sokak \u0130nsan\u0131 ve S\u0131n\u0131r \u00dczerine<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[33,8],"tags":[32,76],"class_list":["post-279","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-alinti","category-roman","tag-ayhan-gecgin","tag-genclik-dusu"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9WYIs-4v","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":616,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/11\/27\/gecgin-bir-yer-aramak-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":279,"position":0},"title":"Ge\u00e7gin, Bir Yer Aramak \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"27 November 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Ba\u015f\u0131 hafiften d\u00f6n\u00fcyor, kulaklar\u0131 tutu\u015fmu\u015f gibi yan\u0131yordu. 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Daha \u00f6nce yakalamam imkans\u0131z gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen u\u00e7ucu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere bir nebze daha yakla\u015fabilmeyi ummu\u015ftum. Di\u011fer okurlar\u0131n bu romanlar\u0131 nerelerden okuduklar\u0131na dair ilgimin bir sonucu olarak Ge\u00e7gin\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "ele\u015ftiri"","block_context":{"text":"ele\u015ftiri","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/edebiyat\/elestiri\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":553,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/11\/20\/gecgin-gece-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":279,"position":2},"title":"Ge\u00e7gin, Gece \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"20 November 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Aylard\u0131r gecelerimi bu radyosuz, televizyonsuz, telefonsuz evde kanepeye uzanarak ge\u00e7iriyordum. E\u011fer d\u0131\u015fardaysam korkum daha trene biner binmez ba\u015fl\u0131yordu. 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G\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n kesinli\u011fini geri verene kadar geceyi ge\u00e7irebilmek i\u00e7in y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. Bu, \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n her zaman g\u00fcn\u00fc verece\u011fi anlam\u0131na gelmiyordu. Y\u00fcr\u00fcyen i\u00e7in g\u00fcn her zaman tehdit alt\u0131ndayd\u0131, \u0131\u015f\u0131k ertesi sabah g\u00fcn\u00fc geri vermeyebilirdi. F\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131n\u0131n, g\u00f6be\u011fi dizleri \u00fcst\u00fcnde\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "al\u0131nt\u0131"","block_context":{"text":"al\u0131nt\u0131","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/alinti\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/kenarda-ayhan-gecgin-201x300.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":894,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/01\/23\/gurbilek-ayhan-gecgin-ve-olumsuz-yasam-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":279,"position":4},"title":"Nurdan G\u00fcrbilek: Ayhan Ge\u00e7gin ve Olumsuz Ya\u015fam \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"23 January 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"Not: San\u0131r\u0131m bu post internette payla\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, ziyaret edenler olmu\u015f. 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Tepeye de not d\u00fc\u015feyim dedim, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki b\u00f6l\u00fcm Nurdan G\u00fcrbilek'in Express'te (Yaz 2016, say\u0131 144) yay\u0131mlanan \"Uzun Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f, Eksik Halk\" adl\u0131 uzun ve derin denemesinden \"ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f \u00e7izgisi\" kavram\u0131n\u0131 oda\u011f\u0131na alan bir\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "al\u0131nt\u0131"","block_context":{"text":"al\u0131nt\u0131","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/alinti\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/nurdan-gurbilek-uzun-yuruyus-eksik-halk-ayhan-gecgin-1-1024x465.png?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/nurdan-gurbilek-uzun-yuruyus-eksik-halk-ayhan-gecgin-1-1024x465.png?resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/nurdan-gurbilek-uzun-yuruyus-eksik-halk-ayhan-gecgin-1-1024x465.png?resize=525%2C300 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":309,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/09\/24\/sonmez-istanbulun-donusumu-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":279,"position":5},"title":"S\u00f6nmez, \u0130stanbul’un D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"24 September 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"G\u00f6rmenin, tatman\u0131n ve hazz\u0131n mek\u00e2n\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fen kentte, her yanda felaket yoktu ama eski hik\u00e2yelerin b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc d\u00fcnyas\u0131 da ya\u015fam\u0131yordu. \u0130lk ku\u015faklar\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn enerjileri ve yarat\u0131c\u0131 arzular\u0131yla h\u00fccum etti\u011fi kentin yerini i\u015ftah alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130nsan da, sanat da, k\u00f6pek de i\u015ftahla seviliyordu. 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