{"id":2640,"date":"2019-06-14T00:13:22","date_gmt":"2019-06-13T21:13:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/?p=2640"},"modified":"2019-10-19T23:39:41","modified_gmt":"2019-10-19T20:39:41","slug":"proust-okuma-notlarim-ii-okuma-notu-bile-yazamamak","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2019\/06\/14\/proust-okuma-notlarim-ii-okuma-notu-bile-yazamamak\/","title":{"rendered":"Proust Okuma Notlar\u0131m II | Okuma Notu Bile Yazamamak"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p><em><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00dcvert\u00fcr: Bu yaz\u0131 romanlarla hi\u00e7 ilgisi olmayan tam bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck girdisi oldu. Buran\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u00fck gibi bir yan\u0131 da oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in ileride d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakay\u0131m diye kay\u0131t alt\u0131na almak istedim.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u0130\u015fler, her zaman oldu\u011fu gibi, ba\u015fta d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm yolda ilerlemedi. \u201c\u0130\u015fler\u201d, \u201chayat\u201d ya da \u201cg\u00fcnler\u201d gibi kelimelerle sorumlulu\u011fu birinciden \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc tekile kayd\u0131rmay\u0131 seviyorum. Okumada Sodom ve Gomorra\u2019n\u0131n ba\u015flar\u0131na geldim fakat bu okuman\u0131n \u015feceresini yaz\u0131yla tutma niyetimi bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftiremedim. Okumaya e\u015f zamanl\u0131 olarak bir yandan notlar alarak, \u00f6nce kitap kitap olay \u00f6rg\u00fclerini ve karakterleri not etmeyi; sonra okuduklar\u0131m\u0131n bana d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u00fckleri ve hissettirdiklerini toparlayarak denemeye \u00f6yk\u00fcnen bir \u015feyler yazmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmay\u0131; sonunda t\u00fcm kitaplar bitti\u011findeyse Proust \u00fczerine metinlere bakarak oradan do\u011fru \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 kaydetmeyi planl\u0131yordum. Ki\u015fisel bir \u00f6\u011frenme ve ar\u015fiv \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 gibi olabilir demi\u015ftim. Dolu dolu bir okuma yazma etkinli\u011fi\u2026 O Proust blog\u2019lar\u0131na m\u0131 \u00f6zenmi\u015ftim acaba yoksa be\u011fendi\u011fim ele\u015ftirmen ve denemecilerin birden verdikleri referanslara, kurduklar\u0131 ili\u015fkilere mi, bilmiyorum. Olsun, al\u0131\u015fk\u0131n\u0131m ba\u015flamamaya ya da bitirememeye, hem Marcel, Enis Ak\u0131n\u2019\u0131n sordu\u011fu gibi \u201cbenim sana kimseye a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f bir duygu borcum mu var?\u201d, yoksa yok.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">En az\u0131ndan yolun bu k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden ba\u015fka bir y\u00f6ne saparak devam etmeyi deneyebilirim belki. Devam edemedi\u011fim ilk nota \u015f\u00f6yle ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f\u0131m:<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/w.soundcloud.com\/player\/?url=https%3A\/\/api.soundcloud.com\/tracks\/633352050&amp;color=%23ff5500&amp;auto_play=false&amp;hide_related=false&amp;show_comments=true&amp;show_user=true&amp;show_reposts=false&amp;show_teaser=true&amp;visual=true\" width=\"100%\" height=\"300\" frameborder=\"no\" scrolling=\"no\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center; font-size: 13px;\"><em>(basitli\u011fi utan\u00e7 verici olsa da iki \u015feyi bir araya getirmeyi seviyorum)<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Uzun (400+ sayfa) roman okuma prati\u011fim pek yok. Bunca sat\u0131r\u0131 okuduktan sonra karakterleri ve olay \u00f6rg\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rlamakta g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fck \u00e7ekiyorum. Detaylar\u0131 ise genelde hi\u00e7 okumam\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na tamamen unutuyorum. Kitab\u0131 bitirir bitirmez ilk sayfaya bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda sanki hi\u00e7 okumad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir roman gibi gelebiliyor. Swann\u2019lar\u0131n Taraf\u0131\u2019n\u0131n, gece uykuya dalmadan evvel okunan kitaplardan yola \u00e7\u0131karak hat\u0131ra, hayal d\u00fcnyas\u0131, ince duyumsall\u0131k ve h\u00fcsran gibi roman\u0131n kalan\u0131na dair temel noktalara i\u015faret eden 4-5 sayfal\u0131k m\u00fcthi\u015f a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sonradan tekrar okumasam hi\u00e7 kalmayacakm\u0131\u015f akl\u0131mda.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Sonra buradan ilerleyemeyince, vazge\u00e7ip, ba\u015fka bir ak\u015fam deftere \u015fu notu alm\u0131\u015f\u0131m:<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"><br \/><\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"><br \/><\/span><em><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Swann\u2019lar\u0131n Taraf\u0131 Marcel\u2019in uyumadan \u00f6nce okudu\u011fu kitaplarla, uyku ile uyan\u0131kl\u0131k aras\u0131nda bu kitaplardan do\u011fan hayallerle a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor. \u201c[K]itapta s\u00f6z\u00fc edilen \u015fey benmi\u015fim gibi gelirdi bana; bu bir kilise de olabilirdi, bir d\u00f6rtl\u00fc de, I. Fran\u00e7ois\u2019yle \u015earlken aras\u0131ndaki rekabet de\u201d (s.9). Basit anlamda bir karakterle \u00f6zde\u015fle\u015fmenin \u00f6tesinde kendini herhangi bir varl\u0131\u011fa; ki\u015fiye, nesneye, duyguya ya da bir fikre d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcren Marcel zamanla bu birliktelikten ayr\u0131larak hem okuduklar\u0131na mesafelenen hem bu s\u0131rada etraf\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131na varmaya ba\u015flayan (tren d\u00fcd\u00fckleri vb.) noktaya \u00e7ekildi\u011finde devreye bu kez de hayal d\u00fcnyas\u0131 ve hat\u0131ralar giriyor. \u2018An\u2019 b\u00f6ylece yo\u011funla\u015f\u0131yor. Kitap, benlik, d\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnya, hayaller, hat\u0131ralar (ileriye ve geriye d\u00f6n\u00fck) [1] birka\u00e7 sayfada roman\u0131n evreninin kurucu par\u00e7alar\u0131 olarak yerle\u015fiyorlar. Sonradan bunlara resimler, sonatlar, mimari vd. eklenecek.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Not almay\u0131 b\u0131rakmam\u0131n sebebine biraz yakla\u015ft\u0131m b\u00f6yle toparlay\u0131nca. Bu h\u0131zla giderek ne ilk par\u00e7ay\u0131 bitirebilirim, ne devam edecek g\u00fcc\u00fc bulabilirim. Yaza yaza birka\u00e7 sayfa kat edebilmi\u015fim ancak. \u015eimdilik, ancak al\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 ve ba\u011flam\u0131ndan kopar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olan di\u011fer duygular\u0131 takip etmeye devam edebilirim.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Ko\u00e7ak&#8217;\u0131n Tanp\u0131nar\/Kafka \u00fczerine olup da Proust karikat\u00fcr\u00fcyle a\u00e7\u0131lan <a href=\"https:\/\/t24.com.tr\/k24\/yazi\/tanpinar-ile-kafka,2023\">\u015fu<\/a> yaz\u0131s\u0131na da bug\u00fcnlerde denk geldim, asl\u0131nda eski bir yaz\u0131ym\u0131\u015f, karikat\u00fcr\u00fcn asl\u0131n\u0131 bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc bulamad\u0131m ama tahayy\u00fcl edebiliyorum:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Bir karikat\u00fcr hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum bundan k\u0131rk-elli y\u0131l \u00f6ncesinden, yabanc\u0131 bir yay\u0131nda g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f olmal\u0131y\u0131m, belki New Yorker: plajda bikinili ve \u201cho\u015f\u201d diye i\u015faretlenmi\u015f bir kad\u0131n Proust okuyor, yan\u0131na usulca kendi havlusunu atan sinek gibi bir gen\u00e7 adam yana\u015f\u0131yor, sivilceli, \u00fcrkek, o zaman\u0131n \u201cnerd\u201d\u00fc, diyor ki \u201cben de hep Proust okumak istemi\u015fimdir, yak\u0131nda ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131m.\u201d Bikinili kad\u0131n istifini bozmadan elindeki kitaba devam ediyor. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc kare: bilgisayarc\u0131 \u00e7ocu\u011fun havlusuna da basarak izbandut gibi bir o\u011flan dalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r sahneye, dalgal\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131yla bir Adonis, bir Zalo\u011flu R\u00fcstem. D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc: Proust cildi kumlar\u0131n \u00fczerinde, R\u00fcstem ile bikini kol kola kabine do\u011fru gidiyorlar. Evet, biliyoruz: zamanla bikini ya\u015flanacak ve b\u00f6ylece roman\u0131n son ciltlerine do\u011fru ilerleyecek, yaz\u0131l\u0131mc\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcnde hi\u00e7 vakit bulamayacak ve R\u00fcstem de kitab\u0131 okumadan okumu\u015f, hatta ba\u015ftan sona \u201cyazm\u0131\u015f\u201d olacakt\u0131r.\u2013 Ama adam\u0131n kendisi de bunun tam b\u00f6yle olmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini bilir gibiydi. Bkz., Charlus\u2019yle ilgili k\u0131s\u0131mlar.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Karikat\u00fcr\u00fc s\u00fcrd\u00fcren, geni\u015fleten, biraz da tersy\u00fcz eden bir hat\u0131rlama bu. Proust okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ya\u015fta gen\u00e7 olmasam da, bilgisayarc\u0131y\u0131m, biraz nerd&#8217;\u00fcm, &#8220;sinek gibi&#8221;yi de kendime yak\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yorum. T\u00fcm bunlar bir arada, bir denemecinin karikat\u00fcrle desteklenen \u015fablonun yan\u0131na ama hafif de d\u0131\u015f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f olmaktan mutluyum. En \u00e7ok bunu ba\u015farm\u0131\u015f olabilirim. Y\u0131lba\u015f\u0131 gecesi sarho\u015f dolu bir sar\u0131 dolmu\u015fta eve d\u00f6nerken, \u00e7antamdan bir \u015fiir kitab\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p okumaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca ilk iki soru &#8220;ne i\u015f yap\u0131yorsun?&#8221;, &#8220;bilgisayarc\u0131lar \u015fiirden anl\u0131yor mu yahu?&#8221; olmu\u015ftu. Bilmiyoruz ama yine de okuyoruz.<\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_2654\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-2654\" style=\"width: 350px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"2654\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2019\/06\/14\/proust-okuma-notlarim-ii-okuma-notu-bile-yazamamak\/bhupen-khakhar-landscaping-on-head-1985\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/06\/Bhupen-Khakhar-Landscaping-on-Head-1985.jpg?fit=598%2C800&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"598,800\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;16&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;Canon EOS-1Ds Mark II&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;Bhupen Khakhar, Landscaping on Head, 1985 \\rAquarell auf Papier \/ Watercolour on paper \\r640 x 500 mm \\rSammlung Deutsche Bank \/ Deutsche Bank Collection, K20060358&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;946757091&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;Sammlung Deutsche Bank \/ Deutsche Bank Collection, K20060358&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;100&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;100&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0.008&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;1&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"Bhupen Khakhar, Landscaping on Head, 1985\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"&lt;p&gt;Bhupen Khakhar, Landscaping on Head, 1985&lt;br \/&gt;\nAquarell auf Papier \/ Watercolour on paper&lt;br \/&gt;\n640 x 500 mm&lt;br \/&gt;\nSammlung Deutsche Bank \/ Deutsche Bank Collection, K20060358&lt;\/p&gt;\n\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/06\/Bhupen-Khakhar-Landscaping-on-Head-1985.jpg?fit=598%2C800&amp;ssl=1\" class=\"wp-image-2654\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/06\/Bhupen-Khakhar-Landscaping-on-Head-1985.jpg?resize=350%2C468\" alt=\"\" width=\"350\" height=\"468\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/06\/Bhupen-Khakhar-Landscaping-on-Head-1985.jpg?resize=224%2C300&amp;ssl=1 224w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/06\/Bhupen-Khakhar-Landscaping-on-Head-1985.jpg?w=598&amp;ssl=1 598w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 350px) 100vw, 350px\" \/><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-2654\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Bhupen Khakhar, Landscaping on Head, 1985<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>Son olarak, en az\u0131ndan bir Proust notu alay\u0131m: Sodom ve Gomorra&#8217;n\u0131n ba\u015flar\u0131nda bir yerde, Marcel, bir salonda \u00f6nceden tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 biriyle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131yor fakat bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc o ki\u015finin ad\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlayam\u0131yordu. Ad\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z birini g\u00f6r\u00fcnce zihnimizden neler ge\u00e7er diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek o saniyelerde zihnin dola\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn o karma\u015f\u0131k koridorlar\u0131 bir sayfada anlat\u0131yordu. Bu pasaj\u0131 okuyunca, yazar\u0131n ustala\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 alanlardan birini anlamaya yak\u0131nla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissettim. Di\u011fer insanlarla payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o g\u00fcndelik deneyimlerin tak\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 ve sonuna kadar gidecek anlat\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcstlenmi\u015f bir yazar var. Bir yanda k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131k, stat\u00fc, arzu, haf\u0131za gibi b\u00fcy\u00fck kavramlar\u0131n etraf\u0131nda a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r dola\u015f\u0131rken bir yanda da en tali deneyimleri k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck par\u00e7alar\u0131na kadar s\u00f6k\u00fcp birle\u015ftiriyor. Okunmas\u0131n\u0131n zorlu\u011fu, okurunun \u00e7o\u011funlu\u011funun edebiyata g\u00f6rece daha d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcn olanlardan olu\u015fmas\u0131 da bu y\u00fczden olabilir mi? Zihinsel deneyimin s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131n u\u00e7 noktalar\u0131n\u0131 zorlarken tahamm\u00fcl noktalar\u0131n\u0131 ancak yazar\u0131n \u00e7ok da hayati olmayan bir konuda s\u00f6yleyeceklerini \u00f6nemseyenler esnetebiliyor.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Paris&#8217;te, \u015fehrin en \u00e7irkin semtlerinden birinde bile, \u00f6yle bir pencere bilirim ki, bir\u00e7ok de\u011fi\u015fik sokakta yer alan, bir araya y\u0131\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f damlardan ve mor, bazen k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ms\u0131, bazen de, atmosferin \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 en se\u00e7kin &#8220;suret&#8221;lerde, k\u00fcllerden dam\u0131t\u0131lm\u0131\u015f siyahl\u0131kta bir kubbeden olu\u015fan art arda iki, hatta \u00fc\u00e7 ayr\u0131 plan g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr; Saint-Augustin Kilisesi&#8217;ne ait olan bu kubbe, bu Paris manzaras\u0131na Piranesi&#8217;nin kimi Roma manzaralar\u0131n\u0131n havas\u0131n\u0131 verir. Ne var ki, bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck grav\u00fcrlerden hi\u00e7birine haf\u0131zam ne kadar zevkle hat\u0131rlasa da, uzun s\u00fcre \u00f6nce kaybetti\u011fim \u015feyi, yani nesneleri birer g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc olarak alg\u0131lamam\u0131za de\u011fil de, benzeri olmayan insanlarm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na onlara inanmam\u0131za yol a\u00e7an duyguyu koyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, hi\u00e7biri Combray&#8217;in kilisenin arkas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen sokaklardaki \u00e7an kulesi g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn hat\u0131ras\u0131 gibi hayat\u0131m\u0131n derin bir b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc h\u00e2kimiyeti alt\u0131nda bulundurmaz.&#8221; (Swann&#8217;lar\u0131n Taraf\u0131, s. 69-70)<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">[1] hat\u0131ra denen \u015fey -hen\u00fcz bulundu\u011fum yeri hat\u0131ras\u0131 de\u011filse de, daha \u00f6nce ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ve \u015fimdi de i\u00e7inde bulunabilece\u011fim yerlerden birka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n hat\u0131ras\u0131- kendi ba\u015f\u0131ma i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kamayaca\u011f\u0131m bu bo\u015flukta beni \u00e7ekip almak \u00fczere g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden uzat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir yard\u0131m eli gibi, bana geri d\u00f6nerdi\u2026\u201d (s. 11)<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00dcvert\u00fcr: Bu yaz\u0131 romanlarla hi\u00e7 ilgisi olmayan tam bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck girdisi oldu. Buran\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u00fck gibi bir yan\u0131 da oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in ileride d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakay\u0131m diye kay\u0131t alt\u0131na almak istedim. \u0130\u015fler, her zaman oldu\u011fu gibi, ba\u015fta d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm yolda ilerlemedi. \u201c\u0130\u015fler\u201d, \u201chayat\u201d ya da \u201cg\u00fcnler\u201d gibi kelimelerle sorumlulu\u011fu birinciden \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc tekile kayd\u0131rmay\u0131 seviyorum. Okumada Sodom ve Gomorra\u2019n\u0131n ba\u015flar\u0131na &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2019\/06\/14\/proust-okuma-notlarim-ii-okuma-notu-bile-yazamamak\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Proust Okuma Notlar\u0131m II | Okuma Notu Bile Yazamamak<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[578],"tags":[576,575],"class_list":["post-2640","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-proust-notlari","tag-kayip-zamanin-izinde","tag-marcel-proust"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9WYIs-GA","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":2603,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2019\/05\/12\/proust-okuma-evreni-ve-dis-dunya\/","url_meta":{"origin":2640,"position":0},"title":"Proust, Okuma Evreni ve D\u0131\u015f D\u00fcnya","author":"yalpertem","date":"12 May 2019","format":false,"excerpt":"\" O sonbahar yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m gezintiler, saatlerce kitap okuduktan sonra gezmeye \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in, daha da zevkliydiler. 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K\u00fclliyat\u0131 zaten yazmay\u0131, okumay\u0131, al\u0131nt\u0131lamay\u0131, ba\u015fka metinleri, onlar\u0131n yazarlar\u0131yla muhabbeti ku\u015fatm\u0131\u015f okur-yazardan b\u00f6ylesi bir par\u00e7a s\u00f6k\u00fcp \u00e7\u0131karmak utan\u00e7 verici. 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