{"id":2525,"date":"2019-03-17T11:11:31","date_gmt":"2019-03-17T08:11:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/?p=2525"},"modified":"2022-05-27T12:59:37","modified_gmt":"2022-05-27T10:59:37","slug":"gurbuz-bastonla-bekleyis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2019\/03\/17\/gurbuz-bastonla-bekleyis\/","title":{"rendered":"G\u00fcrb\u00fcz, Bastonla Bekleyi\u015f"},"content":{"rendered":"\r\n<p>\u015eule G\u00fcrb\u00fcz bu blog&#8217;da metinlerinden kesip yerle\u015ftirdi\u011fim pasajlarla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fsa kahrolur herhalde, di\u011fer pek \u00e7ok yazar gibi, ama biraz daha fazla belki. Ne yaz\u0131k ki biz t\u00fcketiciler, k\u00fclt\u00fcrel metinleri kendimize yo\u011furuyor, onlardan ba\u015fka bir \u015feyler yapmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz, ad\u0131m\u0131za <a href=\"https:\/\/journals.sagepub.com\/home\/joc\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\" aria-label=\"jurnal (opens in a new tab)\">jurnal<\/a> bile a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f akademisyenler. &#8220;<a href=\"https:\/\/t24.com.tr\/yazarlar\/cemal-tuncdemir\/kitaplarda-okuduklarimizi-unutuyorsak-hala-neden-okumaliyiz,21516\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\" aria-label=\"Kitaplarda okuduklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 unutuyorsak h\u00e2l\u00e2 neden okumal\u0131y\u0131z? (opens in a new tab)\">Kitaplarda okuduklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 unutuyorsak h\u00e2l\u00e2 neden okumal\u0131y\u0131z?<\/a>&#8221; sorusuna benim pek bir cevab\u0131m yoktu ama metinlerde kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131p \u00e7ok da unutmamak istedi\u011fim \u015feyleri b\u00f6yle bir kere temize \u00e7ekince sanki unutma s\u00fcremi uzat\u0131yorum. Tekrar kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rabilece\u011fim kolay bir yerde dursunlar, dijitalli\u011fin arama olanaklar\u0131yla raf dizimindeki fiziksel k\u0131s\u0131tlar\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne ge\u00e7sinler istiyorum. \u00d6te yanda, t\u00fcm bunlar\u0131 bir araya toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bu beraber duru\u015flar\u0131ndan bir &#8220;toplam&#8221; \u00e7\u0131kar m\u0131 diye de e\u015feleniyorum. \u00c7\u0131kmad\u0131, \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor. Buraya ta\u015f\u0131sam da unutuyorum. Metinler de bir araya gelince tek bir pasaja d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015femiyorlar. Komik mi bilmiyorum ama g\u00fcl\u00fcyorum. <em>&#8220;Bilme o\u011flum, bilme \u2013 ne istedi\u011fini hi\u00e7 bilme. Bunu bilirsen, hayat\u0131n boyunca bilece\u011fin tek \u015fey bu olur.&#8221;<\/em><\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>Paris sand\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00f6yleymi\u015f gibi arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fehrin Paris olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131yla y\u00fczle\u015fen yorgun ve i\u00e7inde asit ta\u015f\u0131yan YA\u015eLI ADAM. Bir de 22 \u2013 26 aras\u0131ndaki ilk tirad\u0131 var. Asl\u0131nda oradan buraya ba\u011flan\u0131yor kafamda, sonra da onu ge\u00e7ireyim.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\r\n<figure class=\"aligncenter\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"271\" height=\"475\" data-attachment-id=\"2527\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2019\/03\/17\/gurbuz-bastonla-bekleyis\/sule-gurbuz-ne-yastadir-ne-basta-akil-yoktur\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/%C5%9Fule-g%C3%BCrb%C3%BCz-ne-ya%C5%9Ftad%C4%B1r-ne-ba%C5%9Fta-ak%C4%B1l-yoktur.jpg?fit=271%2C475&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"271,475\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"\u015fule g\u00fcrb\u00fcz &amp;#8211; ne ya\u015ftad\u0131r ne ba\u015fta ak\u0131l yoktur\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/%C5%9Fule-g%C3%BCrb%C3%BCz-ne-ya%C5%9Ftad%C4%B1r-ne-ba%C5%9Fta-ak%C4%B1l-yoktur.jpg?fit=271%2C475&amp;ssl=1\" class=\"wp-image-2527 aligncenter\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/%C5%9Fule-g%C3%BCrb%C3%BCz-ne-ya%C5%9Ftad%C4%B1r-ne-ba%C5%9Fta-ak%C4%B1l-yoktur.jpg?resize=271%2C475\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/%C5%9Fule-g%C3%BCrb%C3%BCz-ne-ya%C5%9Ftad%C4%B1r-ne-ba%C5%9Fta-ak%C4%B1l-yoktur.jpg?w=271&amp;ssl=1 271w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/03\/%C5%9Fule-g%C3%BCrb%C3%BCz-ne-ya%C5%9Ftad%C4%B1r-ne-ba%C5%9Fta-ak%C4%B1l-yoktur.jpg?resize=171%2C300&amp;ssl=1 171w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 271px) 100vw, 271px\" \/><\/figure>\r\n<\/div>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>&#8220;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><em>Karanl\u0131k, bo\u015f sokak. YA\u015eLI ADAM bir sokak lambas\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda inleyerek oturur. Sonunda dayanamayarak a\u011flamaya ba\u015flar. Gittik\u00e7e \u015fiddetli, sars\u0131larak a\u011flar. Boynundaki e\u015farb\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p g\u00f6zlerini siler. E\u015farba bakarak.<\/em><\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p><strong>YA\u015eLI ADAM: <\/strong>Seni hi\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131karmamal\u0131yd\u0131m, hi\u00e7.<br \/><em>A\u011flamaya devam eder. Cebinden Paris&#8217;in oldu\u011funa inand\u0131\u011f\u0131 resmi \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p bakar. \u0130nler.<\/em><br \/>\u2013 Hemen inan\u0131verdim, yine, hemen inan\u0131verdim. <em>Ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r.<\/em> Ben de biliyorum buran\u0131n Paris olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ben de biliyorum. Ama i\u015fte <em>Durur<\/em>. \u0130nan\u0131verdim. Paris&#8217;i bana b\u00f6yle anlatt\u0131klar\u0131na g\u00f6re, oran\u0131n b\u00f6yle olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yaln\u0131zca anlat\u0131lan oldu\u011funu ben de biliyorum. <em>\u0130nler.<\/em> Resimlere bakarak, filmleri seyrederek oraya giden, bunlardan hi\u00e7birini g\u00f6rmese bile, herkesin bildi\u011finden, bilmek istedi\u011finden farkl\u0131 bir\u015fey s\u00f6ylememek i\u00e7in; hatta gitti\u011finden bile \u015f\u00fcphe edilmesin diye, ayn\u0131 \u015feyleri anlat\u0131yor. Oysa yok \u2013 bunlar\u0131n hi\u00e7biri yok orada. Hayaller, olmas\u0131 istenenler var. Ama kendisi&#8230; yok i\u015fte. \u015eapkac\u0131 yok. \u015eapkac\u0131 olsa bile, o adam asl\u0131nda \u015fapkac\u0131 de\u011fil; \u015fapkac\u0131 olacak birisi de\u011fil. \u00d6yleyse \u015fapkac\u0131 da yok. Ama inan\u0131vermek <em>Durur<\/em>. g\u00fczel. Durup dururken buradan ayr\u0131l\u0131p oraya, d\u00fc\u015fe girmek g\u00fczel. Ama <em>Durur.<\/em> d\u00fc\u015flerden bile kovulmak, hem de yal\u0131nayak \u2013ayakkab\u0131l\u0131 da olsa farkeder mi, bilmem ama\u2013 hem de yal\u0131nayak, gerekti\u011finde f\u0131rlatabilece\u011fin tek \u015feyden bile yoksun, \u00e7\u0131plak\u2013 <em>Ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r<\/em>. Ne zaman insanl\u0131\u011fa soyunsan, \u00e7\u0131plaks\u0131n.<br \/>\u2013 Ne zaman insanl\u0131\u011fa soyunsam bastonu yiyorum, \u00e7\u0131pla\u011f\u0131m. <em>G\u00fcler<\/em>. Ah, soytar\u0131m benim, ihtiyar soytar\u0131m, ge\u00e7iversem \u015f\u00f6yle ellerimin \u00fcst\u00fcnden, ama <em>Lambaya bakar<\/em>. \u0131\u015f\u0131k, yalaz sa\u00e7l\u0131 bir yalanc\u0131, bin g\u00f6z gibi bakarken, bir g\u00f6z gibi akan \u00f6l\u00fc ta\u015f\u0131y\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 ellerime, bir deli\u011finden f\u0131rlam\u0131\u015f, bin k\u0131ll\u0131 p\u00f6rs\u00fck bedeniyle yalan\u0131n, yalan\u0131n yal\u0131nayak, \u00fcrk\u00fcn\u00e7 ayaklar\u0131yla takip ediyor beni matemim. Matemim <em>Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ellerinin aras\u0131na al\u0131r.<\/em> kalakald\u0131m ellerimin \u00fcst\u00fcnde. Nas\u0131l da d\u00f6n\u00fcp duruyorum \u2013 nas\u0131l ki, her seferinde \u00f6l\u00fc bir gecenin sandukas\u0131 gibi a\u011f\u0131r ve \u00e7ileli, yorulmu\u015f ellerimde. <em>Ba\u015f\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcne d\u00fc\u015fer, bir s\u00fcre \u00f6yle kalakal\u0131r. Derken \u00f6nce yava\u015f, sonra kahkahayla g\u00fclmeye ba\u015flar. Ellerini kald\u0131r\u0131r, ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r.<\/em> <br \/>\u2013 Hey Tanr\u0131m, bunlar\u0131 s\u00f6ylerken, bu yaral\u0131 bereli ihtiyar halimle bir yandan ac\u0131 \u00e7ekerken, bir yandan da sokak lambas\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na yak\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, ho\u015f durdu\u011fumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. H\u00e2l\u00e2 be\u011fenilmek; yoldan birisi ge\u00e7sin de, benim az \u00f6nce neredeyse can\u0131mdan oldu\u011fum olay\u0131 ya\u015famama sebep olan kad\u0131na duydu\u011fumu bana duysun, yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 yaps\u0131n istiyorum. <em>Durur<\/em>. Ama b\u00f6yle \u015feylere benden ba\u015fka ald\u0131r\u0131\u015f eden yok \u2013 galiba yok. Bu ya\u015fa geldim; daha ne kadar bekleyece\u011fim? \u00dcstelik beklerken de sopa yiyorum. Sessiz, sakin, belirsiz bir bekleyi\u015f bile de\u011fil \u2013 bastonlu, bastonlu&#8230; <br \/>\u2013 Hey Tanr\u0131m, ben kand\u0131m, ben bir\u015fey sand\u0131m, en az\u0131ndan istedim, umdum da \u2013 daha pantolonunun y\u0131rt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan habersiz, \u00fcstelik bir \u00e7arpmayla elden gitti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen; belki de &#8216;olan oldu&#8217; deyip, hayat\u0131n\u0131n geri kalan\u0131n\u0131 bu yeni d\u00fczenine g\u00f6re s\u00fcrd\u00fcrecek adam bile inanmad\u0131, kanmad\u0131.<br \/><em>Durur. Soluk al\u0131r.<\/em> <br \/>\u2013 Herkes, ama herkes \u00e7ok becerikli. T\u00fcm becerebildikleri de bu. Ama belki zaten bu kadard\u0131r. <br \/>\u2013 \u015ea\u015fk\u0131n\u0131m, h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n\u0131m. Bir sokak k\u00f6\u015fesinde ya\u015fl\u0131 bir kad\u0131n s\u0131zlan\u0131yor; olgunluktan bahsediyor; bunun \u00f6l\u00fcmle sa\u011flanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, hem de g\u00fclerek s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorsa, onun dedi\u011fi yap\u0131lmaz da ne yap\u0131l\u0131r?<br \/><em>Ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r.<\/em><br \/>\u2013 Kad\u0131n! Seni unutmad\u0131m.<br \/><em>Durur.<\/em> <br \/>\u2013 \u015ea\u015fk\u0131n\u0131m.<br \/><em>Lamban\u0131n alt\u0131na uzan\u0131p g\u00f6zlerini kapar. Bir s\u00fcre sonra uykuya dalar.<\/em><\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>&#8220;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>\u015eule G\u00fcrb\u00fcz, Ne Ya\u015ftad\u0131r Ne Ba\u015fta, Ak\u0131l Yoktur, Mitos Boyut, 1993, s. 39-42.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u015eule G\u00fcrb\u00fcz bu blog&#8217;da metinlerinden kesip yerle\u015ftirdi\u011fim pasajlarla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fsa kahrolur herhalde, di\u011fer pek \u00e7ok yazar gibi, ama biraz daha fazla belki. Ne yaz\u0131k ki biz t\u00fcketiciler, k\u00fclt\u00fcrel metinleri kendimize yo\u011furuyor, onlardan ba\u015fka bir \u015feyler yapmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz, ad\u0131m\u0131za jurnal bile a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f akademisyenler. &#8220;Kitaplarda okuduklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 unutuyorsak h\u00e2l\u00e2 neden okumal\u0131y\u0131z?&#8221; sorusuna benim pek bir cevab\u0131m yoktu ama metinlerde &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2019\/03\/17\/gurbuz-bastonla-bekleyis\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">G\u00fcrb\u00fcz, Bastonla Bekleyi\u015f<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[33,25],"tags":[557,68],"class_list":["post-2525","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-alinti","category-tiyatro","tag-ne-yastadir-ne-basta-akil-yoktur","tag-sule-gurbuz"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9WYIs-EJ","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":282,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/09\/04\/gurbuz-sikinti-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":2525,"position":0},"title":"G\u00fcrb\u00fcz, S\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"4 September 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"\u00c7ocuklu\u011fumda s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r, s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131m. 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(2025, May\u0131s 25). \u015eule G\u00fcrb\u00fcz. https:\/\/substack.com\/home\/post\/p-163388211 bu blog'a \u015fimdiye kadar '\u015fule g\u00fcrb\u00fcz' tag'i olan dokuz yaz\u0131 eklemi\u015fim, \u00e7o\u011fu al\u0131nt\u0131. bu onuncu olacak. \u00e7ok iyi buldum yaz\u0131y\u0131. ke\u015fke robert walser ya\u015f\u0131yor olsayd\u0131 da bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 okuyabilseydi diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. \u00f6\u011frenci, hoca olmak istiyor. iki roman\u0131 hari\u00e7 b\u00fct\u00fcn kitaplar\u0131n\u0131 okumu\u015f. k\u0131yamet\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;edebiyat&quot;","block_context":{"text":"edebiyat","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/edebiyat\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":810,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/01\/06\/gurbuz-yasami-gozlemlemek\/","url_meta":{"origin":2525,"position":2},"title":"G\u00fcrb\u00fcz, Ya\u015fam\u0131 G\u00f6zlemlemek","author":"yalpertem","date":"6 January 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Sanki oldum olas\u0131 bir b\u00fcy\u00fck oday\u0131 ar\u015f\u0131nl\u0131yor; ara s\u0131ra elimi muma uzat\u0131p yak\u0131yor, ve hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131 hep sonraya sakl\u0131yorum. \"Dur!\" denilen yeri de, ya\u015famak \u00fczere erteleye erteleye t\u00fcketiyorum. 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Kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyar gibi oluyor; ne a\u00e7\u0131yor ne de kap\u0131yorum.\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;al\u0131nt\u0131&quot;","block_context":{"text":"al\u0131nt\u0131","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/alinti\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/sule-gurbuz-kambur-198x300.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":259,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/09\/03\/gurbuz-kendini-anlatan-birisi\/","url_meta":{"origin":2525,"position":3},"title":"G\u00fcrb\u00fcz, Kendini Anlatan Birisi","author":"yalpertem","date":"3 September 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Ben \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m yere, gezip g\u00f6rd\u00fckten sonra girmek ve giderek k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclerek orada kalmak, bitmek istiyorum. Ne yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m sorulursa, olur ya, sadece bekliyorum. Bazen \u00dcsk\u00fcdar'a y\u00fcr\u00fcrken g\u00f6zlerim sanki \u00e7ok ac\u0131l\u0131 ve a\u011flamakl\u0131 bir geceden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f\u0131m gibi k\u0131rp\u0131\u015farak, adeta tutu\u015farak yan\u0131yor. Etraf\u0131ma, gelen ge\u00e7ene bakmak istiyor, bakam\u0131yorum. G\u00f6zlerim k\u0131rp\u0131\u015f\u0131yor. Bal\u0131klar, marullar, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 so\u011fanlar,\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;al\u0131nt\u0131&quot;","block_context":{"text":"al\u0131nt\u0131","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/alinti\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/09\/coskuyla-olmek-sule-gurbuz-199x300.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":530,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/11\/19\/gurbuz-sikinti-gezinti-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":2525,"position":4},"title":"G\u00fcrb\u00fcz, S\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 ve Gezinti \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"19 November 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Vakit ge\u00e7irmek \u00e7ok zor de\u011fil. Bazen bir ta\u015f midemi ayr\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 ayr\u0131, t\u00fcm varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ayr\u0131 eziyor olur, o ta\u015f\u0131 daha uzaktan bana do\u011fru yuvarlan\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan, daha g\u00fcn i\u00e7inde bana do\u011fru yol al\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan tan\u0131r\u0131m, kuvvetini bilirim. Ama yerimi de\u011fi\u015ftirsem de, bir yerlere ka\u00e7sam da beni bulaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirim. Son yirmi-yirmi be\u015f senedir onu\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;al\u0131nt\u0131&quot;","block_context":{"text":"al\u0131nt\u0131","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/alinti\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/zamanin-farkinda-sule-gurbuz-199x300.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":493,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/11\/15\/gurbuz-durgunluk-ve-keder-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":2525,"position":5},"title":"G\u00fcrb\u00fcz, Durgunluk ve Keder \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"15 November 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Babam gen\u00e7li\u011finde ve \u00f6\u011frencilik y\u0131llar\u0131nda, kendi tabiri ile \"Hayat onun i\u00e7ine damlarken\", bu damlay\u0131\u015fta yine kendi tabiri ile \"pasl\u0131 bir tat\" bulmu\u015f. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 nas\u0131l bulmu\u015f bilemiyorum. 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