{"id":1359,"date":"2018-05-07T21:41:27","date_gmt":"2018-05-07T18:41:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/?p=1359"},"modified":"2023-03-01T15:26:45","modified_gmt":"2023-03-01T14:26:45","slug":"bernhard-yurumek-sonsuz-oykunun-acilisi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/05\/07\/bernhard-yurumek-sonsuz-oykunun-acilisi\/","title":{"rendered":"Bernhard, Y\u00fcr\u00fcmek (Sonsuz \u00d6yk\u00fcn\u00fcn A\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131)"},"content":{"rendered":"

Nadiren Thomas Bernhard \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc veya roman\u0131 okumaya ba\u015fl\u0131yorum, k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre i\u00e7inde, belki bir saat, belki birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra, ne deh\u015fet verici, ne \u00e7ekilmez bir Thomas Bernhard kitab\u0131 bu diyorum. Kelimeler ve \u015feylerin bitmek bilmeyen tekrarlar\u0131, \u00f6tekinin s\u00f6yledi\u011fini an\u0131\u015flar\u0131, kendinden bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na ondan tekrar kendine d\u00f6nen s\u00f6z ve duygu iletmeleri, aktarmalar\u0131, dolaylamalar\u0131, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm metni tekrar okuduktan sonra, diye hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. \u0130ki par\u00e7al\u0131k bir a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f olarak g\u00f6rd\u00fcm bu pasaj\u0131 (pasaj h\u00e2line getirdim, yoksa Bernhard metni her \u00e7e\u015fit al\u0131nt\u0131ya, b\u00f6l\u00fcnme tehdidine kar\u015f\u0131 kendi metinsel ba\u011flar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 \u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, gard\u0131n\u0131 alm\u0131\u015f<\/em>), ilk k\u0131s\u0131m, Karrer sonras\u0131 Oehler’le pazartesi y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015flerine ba\u015flayan anlat\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n bu yeni y\u00fcr\u00fcme prati\u011fini tactile duyarl\u0131l\u0131klarla anlat\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan m\u00fcte\u015fekkil. Sonras\u0131nda, birden y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc domuz derisi eldivenler ve y\u00fcr\u00fcme al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar\u0131ndan y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00e7\u00fclerin deh\u015fet verici ya\u015fam g\u00f6r\u00fclerine k\u0131r\u0131yor.<\/p>\n

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Karrer delirmeden \u00f6nce, sadece \u00e7ar\u015famba g\u00fcn\u00fc Oehler’le y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm halde, \u015fimdi Karrer delirdikten sonra pazartesi de Oehler’le y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum. Karrer benimle pazartesi y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc i\u00e7in, Siz, Karrer art\u0131k benimle pazartesi y\u00fcr\u00fcmedi\u011fi i\u00e7in, pazartesi de benimle y\u00fcr\u00fcyorsunuz, diyor Oehler, Karrer delirip hemen yukar\u0131daki Steinhof’a gitti\u011fi i\u00e7in. Ben de hi\u00e7 \u00e7ekinmeden Oehler’e, iyi o zaman, pazartesi de y\u00fcr\u00fcyelim dedim, Karrer delirdi\u011fi ve Steinhof’ta oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in. Biz \u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131 hep ayn\u0131 (do\u011fuya) y\u00f6ne giderken, pazartesileri bat\u0131ya y\u00fcr\u00fcyoruz, dikkat \u00e7ekici bir bi\u00e7imde pazartesileri \u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131 oldu\u011fundan daha h\u0131zl\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fcyoruz, herhalde diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum, Oehler, Karrer ile benimle oldu\u011fundan hep daha h\u0131zl\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f olmal\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131 \u00e7ok daha yava\u015f, pazartesileri \u00e7ok daha h\u0131zl\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fcyor. G\u00f6r\u00fcyor musunuz diyor Oehler, al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131ktan pazartesileri \u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131 oldu\u011fundan daha h\u0131zl\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc Karrer ile (yani pazartesileri) hep sizinle (\u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131) oldu\u011fundan daha h\u0131zl\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm i\u00e7in Karrer delirdikten sonra siz benimle yaln\u0131z \u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131 de\u011fil pazartesileri de y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz i\u00e7in, pazartesileri ve \u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fcme al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirmem gerekmiyor, diyor Oehler, oysa siz art\u0131k \u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131\u00a0ve<\/em> pazartesileri benimle y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz i\u00e7in, al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 ger\u00e7ekten de\u011fi\u015ftirmek zorundas\u0131n\u0131z, hem de sizin i\u00e7in herhalde ak\u0131l almaz bi\u00e7imde de\u011fi\u015ftirmek zorundas\u0131n\u0131z, diyor Oehler. Ama iyi bu, diyor Oehler ve anla\u015f\u0131l\u0131r bir e\u011fitici tonda, organizma i\u00e7in b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00f6nem ta\u015f\u0131yor ara s\u0131ra ve de uzun aral\u0131klar olmadan al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar\u0131n de\u011fi\u015ftirilmesi ve kendisi de, al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sadece\u00a0de\u011fi\u015ftirmeyi<\/em> de\u011fil\u00a0radikal bir de\u011fi\u015ftirmeyi<\/em> d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmekteymi\u015f. Siz al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftiriyorsunuz, diyor Oehler, \u015fimdi benimle yaln\u0131z \u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131 de\u011fil, pazartesileri de y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek ve bu \u015fimdi benimle de\u011fi\u015fken olarak bir bir y\u00f6ne (\u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131) ve bir di\u011fer (pazartesileri) y\u00f6ne gidiyorsunuz, bu arada ben \u015fimdiye kadar hep \u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131 sizinle, pazartesileri ise Karrer’le y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm halde, \u015fimdi hem pazartesileri hem \u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131, yani pazartesileri de sizinle y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek ve hem de \u00e7ar\u015fambalar\u0131 bir (do\u011fu) y\u00f6n\u00fcne ve pazartesileri sizinle di\u011fer (bat\u0131) y\u00f6n\u00fcne y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftiriyorum. Ayr\u0131ca ben ku\u015fkusuz ve do\u011fal olarak sizinle Karrer’le y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmden farkl\u0131 bi\u00e7imde y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum, diyor Oehler, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc Karrer’in sizden bamba\u015fka bir insan olu\u015fu s\u00f6z konusu ve bu y\u00fczden Karrer’in y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fc de bamba\u015fka (ve de d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmesi), diyor Oehler. O, yani Oehler, Karrer delirdikten ve Steinhof’a girdikten, b\u00fcy\u00fck olas\u0131l\u0131kla sonsuza de\u011fin Steinhof’a girdikten sonra, diyor Oehler, ben, kendisinin s\u00f6yledi\u011fi gibi Oehler’i pazartesileri yaln\u0131z y\u00fcr\u00fcme deh\u015fetinden kurtarm\u0131\u015f\u0131m; o zaman pazartesileri hi\u00e7 y\u00fcr\u00fcmezdim, diyor Oehler, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc pazartesileri tek ba\u015f\u0131na y\u00fcr\u00fcmek zorunda olmak gibi deh\u015fet verici bir \u015fey olamaz. Pazartesileri, diyor Oehler ve tek ba\u015f\u0131na y\u00fcr\u00fcmek zorunda olmak en deh\u015fet verici durumdur. Pazartesileri benimle y\u00fcr\u00fcmeyece\u011finiz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesini akl\u0131ma bile getirmek istemem, diyor Oehler. Ve pazartesileri de tek ba\u015f\u0131na y\u00fcr\u00fcmek zorunda olmay\u0131 hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnemem. Oehler paltosunu iyice kapal\u0131 giyme al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na sahipken ben paltomu tamamen a\u00e7\u0131k olarak giyiyorum. Onun a\u00e7\u0131k paltoya ba\u011fl\u0131 bi\u00e7 dinmeyen \u00fc\u015f\u00fctme ve hastalanma korkusundaki \u015feyin, bende kapal\u0131 palto i\u00e7inde bo\u011fulmak zorunda kalaca\u011f\u0131m korkusunun ne oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Ve b\u00f6ylece Oehler ger\u00e7ekten de s\u00fcrekli donmak zorunda kalaca\u011f\u0131 korkusunu ta\u015f\u0131yor, bense s\u00fcrekli bo\u011fulaca\u011f\u0131m korkusunu. Oehler ayak bileklerinin \u00fczerine kadar gelen ayakkab\u0131lar giyerken, ben yar\u0131m ayakkab\u0131lar giyiyorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc y\u00fcksek ayakkab\u0131lardan nefret ederim, t\u0131pk\u0131 Oehler’in yar\u0131m ayakkab\u0131lardan nefret etti\u011fi gibi. G\u00f6rg\u00fcs\u00fczl\u00fck (ve de budalal\u0131k!) diyor Oehler durmadan, yar\u0131m ayakkab\u0131larla y\u00fcr\u00fcmek, sa\u00e7mal\u0131k, bunun gibi y\u00fcksek kon\u00e7lu, a\u011f\u0131r ayakkab\u0131larla y\u00fcr\u00fcmek diyorum ben. Oehler’in \u015fapkas\u0131 geni\u015f kenarl\u0131, siyahken, benimki dar kenarl\u0131, gri. Siz de benim gibi geni\u015f kenarl\u0131 \u015fapka giymeye al\u0131\u015fabilseydiniz diyor Oehler s\u0131k\u00e7a, ben de s\u0131k\u00e7a Oehler’e siz de benimki gibi dar kenarl\u0131 \u015fapka giymeye al\u0131\u015fabilseydiniz diyorum. Sizin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131za dar kenarl\u0131 \u015fapka de\u011fil, geni\u015f kenarl\u0131 \u015fapka uyar diyor bana Oehler, ben Oehler’e sizin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131za sadece dar kenarl\u0131 \u015fapka de\u011fil, diyorum. Oehler k\u0131z karde\u015fimnin onun i\u00e7in \u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ellikleri, hep ayn\u0131 ellikleri, kaba y\u00fcn ellikleri giyerken, ben eldiven giyiyorum, kar\u0131m\u0131n benim i\u00e7in sat\u0131n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ince, ama astarl\u0131 domuz derisi eldivenleri. Sadece elliklerle insan ger\u00e7ekten \u0131s\u0131n\u0131r, diyor\u00a0Oehler durmadan, sadece eldivenlerle de bunun gibi yumu\u015fak deri eldivenlerle, diyorum ben, eller t\u0131pk\u0131 benim ellerim gibi hareketlidir.\u00a0Oehler siyah, pa\u00e7as\u0131z pantolon giyiyor, bense gri pa\u00e7al\u0131 pantolon giyiyorum. Ama art\u0131k giysilerimizle u\u011fra\u015fm\u0131yoruz ve bu y\u00fczden de\u00a0Oehler dar kenarl\u0131 \u015fapka, pa\u00e7al\u0131 pantolon giysin, \u00fczerindeki gibi dar ceketler giymesin vesaire, ben a\u011f\u0131r ellikler takay\u0131m, y\u00fcksek kon\u00e7lu ayakkab\u0131lar giyeyim vesaire, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdaki onlarca y\u0131ll\u0131k giysiler, nereye gidersek gidelim art\u0131k de\u011fi\u015fmiyor, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu giysiler onlarca y\u0131l i\u00e7inde bizim kesin al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ve dolay\u0131s\u0131yla da kesin giysilerimiz olmu\u015ftur. Bir \u015fey\u00a0duyarsak<\/em>, diyor Oehler \u00e7ar\u015famba g\u00fcn\u00fc, duydu\u011fumuzu s\u0131nar\u0131z, duydu\u011fumuzu s\u0131narsak duydu\u011fumuzun ger\u00e7ek olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemek zorunda kal\u0131ncaya kadar s\u0131nar\u0131z, duyulan yaland\u0131r. Bir \u015fey\u00a0g\u00f6r\u00fcrsek<\/em> g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc s\u0131nar\u0131z, g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz \u015feyin deh\u015fet verici oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemek zorunda kal\u0131ncaya kadar. B\u00f6ylece b\u00fct\u00fcn ya\u015fam boyu deh\u015fetten ve do\u011fru olmayandan ve yalandan kurtulamay\u0131z, diyor Oehler. Bir \u015fey\u00a0yaparsak<\/em>, yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015feyin bir hainlik, bir al\u00e7akl\u0131k, bir utanmazl\u0131k, \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00fcmitsizlik oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemek zorunda kal\u0131ncaya kadar yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015feyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00fcz, yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n do\u011fal olarak yanl\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131r. B\u00f6ylece her g\u00fcn bizim i\u00e7in cehenneme d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, istesek de istemesek de ve d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz \u015feyi onun i\u00e7in gereken so\u011fukkanl\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceye ve keskin zek\u00e2ya sahip olarak akl\u0131m\u0131zdan ge\u00e7irirsek, her durumda da bir hainli\u011fe ve al\u00e7akl\u0131\u011fa ve gereksizli\u011fe var\u0131r\u0131z, bu da bizi deh\u015fet verici bi\u00e7imde bunalt\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclen her \u015fey gereksizdir. Do\u011fan\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme gereksinimi yoktur, diyor Oehler, bir tek insan kibirlili\u011fi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesini s\u00fcrekli do\u011fan\u0131n i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr. Bizi\u00a0b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcyle<\/em> bunalt\u0131ya s\u00fcr\u00fckleyecek, bu ars\u0131z d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme yoluyla, bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme bi\u00e7imine kar\u015f\u0131 do\u011fal olarak tamamen ba\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131k kazanm\u0131\u015f olan do\u011faya s\u00fcrekli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesini soku\u015fturmas\u0131 ger\u00e7e\u011fidir. Bizim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncemizle durumlar do\u011fal olarak, diyor Oehler, gittik\u00e7e daha \u00e7ekilmez durumlara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor. \u00c7ekilmez durumlar\u0131 \u00e7ekilir durumlara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnelim, k\u0131sa s\u00fcre sonra \u00e7ekilmez durumlar\u0131 \u00e7ekilir durumlara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcremedi\u011fimizi anlamak zorunda kal\u0131r\u0131z (d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrmeyi beceremedi\u011fimizi), tam tersine onlar\u0131 daha da \u00e7ekilmez durumlara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc. Ko\u015fullarla da durumlarla oldu\u011fu gibidir, diyor Oehler, ger\u00e7eklerle de ayn\u0131 \u015fey. B\u00fct\u00fcn ya\u015fam s\u00fcreci bir k\u00f6t\u00fcle\u015fme s\u00fcrecidir, s\u00fcrekli, bu yasa en korkuncudur, her \u015fey k\u00f6t\u00fcle\u015fir. Bir insan g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde, k\u0131sa s\u00fcre i\u00e7inde, ne deh\u015fet verici, ne can s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 bir insan demek zorunda kal\u0131r\u0131z. Do\u011faya bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, ne deh\u015fet verici, ne \u00e7ekilmez bir do\u011fa demek zorunda kal\u0131r\u0131z. Yapay bir \u015fey g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde, hangi yapay \u015fey olursa olsun k\u0131sa s\u00fcrede ne \u00e7ekilmez bir yapayl\u0131k demek zorunda kal\u0131r\u0131z. Y\u00fcr\u00fcyorsak, k\u0131sa s\u00fcre sonra ne \u00e7ekilmez bir y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f demek zorunda kal\u0131r\u0131z, ko\u015fuyorsak, ne \u00e7ekilmez bir ko\u015fu, ayakta duruyorsak, ne \u00e7ekilmez bir ayakta durma, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorsak, ne \u00e7ekilmez bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme hali. Bir rastla\u015fma geliyorsa ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za, k\u0131sa zamanda, ne \u00e7ekilmez bir rastla\u015fma diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00fcz. Bir yolculuk yaparsak, k\u0131sa zamanda, ne \u00e7ekilmez bir yolculuk, ne \u00e7ekilmez bir hava deriz, diyor Oehler, hangi hava olursa olsun, hangi havay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor olsak da. Anlay\u0131\u015f keskinse d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce en pervas\u0131z ve en a\u00e7\u0131k oland\u0131r, diyor Oehler, en k\u0131sa zamanda\u00a0her \u015feyin<\/em> \u00e7ekilmez ve deh\u015fet verici oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemek zorunday\u0131z. Ku\u015fkusuzdur ki \u00e7ekilmez olan\u0131 \u00e7ekmek ve deh\u015fet vereni, deh\u015fet veren bir \u015fey olarak alg\u0131lamamak sanatt\u0131r. Bu sanat\u0131 en zor olarak betimlemek do\u011fald\u0131r. Olgulara kar\u015f\u0131 varolma sanat\u0131, diyor Oehler, en zor olan sanatt\u0131r. Olgulara kar\u015f\u0131 varolmak, \u00e7ekilmez olana ve deh\u015fet verici olana kar\u015f\u0131 varolmak demektir, diyor Oehler. Biz s\u00fcrekli olgulara\u00a0kar\u015f\u0131<\/em> de\u011fil de s\u00fcrekli olgular\u00a0ile<\/em> varolursak, diyor Oehler, en k\u0131sa zamanda mahvoluruz. Ger\u00e7ek \u015fu ki, varolu\u015fumuz \u00e7ekilmez ve deh\u015fet verici bir varolu\u015ftur, bu olgu\u00a0ile<\/em> varolursak, bu olguya\u00a0kar\u015f\u0131<\/em> olmadan varolursak, en zavall\u0131 ve en baya\u011f\u0131 bi\u00e7imde mahvoluruz, bu y\u00fczden bizim i\u00e7in s\u00fcrekli\u00a0i\u00e7inde<\/em> bulunurken, ayn\u0131 zamanda \u00e7ekilmez ve deh\u015fet verici bir varolu\u015f olgusuna\u00a0kar\u015f\u0131<\/em> varolmam\u0131zdan daha \u00f6nemli bir \u015fey olmamal\u0131. \u00c7ekilmez ve deh\u015fet verici varolman\u0131n\u00a0i\u00e7inde<\/em> (ve birlikte<\/em>)li\u011finin ayn\u0131 say\u0131daki olanaklar\u0131, t\u0131pk\u0131 \u00e7ekilmez ve deh\u015fet verici varolu\u015fa kar\u015f\u0131, yani\u00a0i\u00e7inde<\/em> (ve birlikte<\/em>) ve ayn\u0131 zamanda \u00e7ekilmez ve deh\u015fet verici varolu\u015fun\u00a0kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda<\/em> olma olgusu ile ayn\u0131d\u0131r. \u0130nsan\u0131n\u00a0i\u00e7inde\u00a0<\/em>(ve birlikte<\/em>)\u00a0bir<\/em> ve b\u00f6ylece\u00a0hepsinin<\/em> ve olgular\u0131n\u00a0t\u00fcm\u00fcne kar\u015f\u0131<\/em> varolma olana\u011f\u0131 hep vard\u0131r, bu olguya kar\u015f\u0131 ve b\u00fct\u00fcn olgulara kar\u015f\u0131 varolma, ki her zaman bir olgunun i\u00e7inde ve (birlikte) ve bir ve b\u00fct\u00fcn olgulara kar\u015f\u0131 varolma olana\u011f\u0131na sahiptir ve bu y\u00fczden varolman\u0131n \u00e7ekilmez ve deh\u015fet verici olmas\u0131 olgusuna kar\u015f\u0131 da. Bu, her zaman so\u011fukkanl\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ve keskin zek\u00e2 sorunudur, ve so\u011fukkanl\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ve keskin zek\u00e2n\u0131n pervas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sorunudur, diyor Oehler…<\/p>\n

”<\/p>\n

Thomas Bernhard, Y\u00fcr\u00fcmek \/ Evet, \u00e7ev. Sezer Duru, Yap\u0131 Kredi Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, 2009 [1971-1978], s. 9-13.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Nadiren Thomas Bernhard \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc veya roman\u0131 okumaya ba\u015fl\u0131yorum, k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre i\u00e7inde, belki bir saat, belki birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra, ne deh\u015fet verici, ne \u00e7ekilmez bir Thomas Bernhard kitab\u0131 bu diyorum. Kelimeler ve \u015feylerin bitmek bilmeyen tekrarlar\u0131, \u00f6tekinin s\u00f6yledi\u011fini an\u0131\u015flar\u0131, kendinden bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na ondan tekrar kendine d\u00f6nen s\u00f6z ve duygu iletmeleri, aktarmalar\u0131, dolaylamalar\u0131, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm metni … Continue reading Bernhard, Y\u00fcr\u00fcmek (Sonsuz \u00d6yk\u00fcn\u00fcn A\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131)<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[33,314,30],"tags":[348,56,370],"class_list":["post-1359","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-alinti","category-oyku","category-yurumek","tag-kentte-yuruyus","tag-thomas-bernhard","tag-yurumek-evet"],"aioseo_notices":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9WYIs-lV","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":1827,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2018\/07\/01\/bernhard-gezinti-dostluk-ve-aptallik\/","url_meta":{"origin":1359,"position":0},"title":"Bernhard, Gezinti, Dostluk ve Aptall\u0131k","author":"yalpertem","date":"1 July 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"\" Soka\u011fa gezintiye \u00e7\u0131kanlar,\" dedi Moro, \"anakronizmin en makul uygulay\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131, onlar gezintilerini yaparken, en akl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda olmayanlar aras\u0131nda en akl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda olanlar, ayn\u0131 zamanda en bedbahtlar aras\u0131nda en mutlu olanlard\u0131r, muhtemelen, sevgili Bay Robert, ama onlara en akl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda olmayanlar aras\u0131nda en akl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda olanlar, en bedbahtlar aras\u0131nda en mutlular\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "al\u0131nt\u0131"","block_context":{"text":"al\u0131nt\u0131","link":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/category\/alinti\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/07\/thomas-bernhard-ungenach-194x300.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":240,"url":"https:\/\/yalpertem.com\/blog\/2017\/09\/02\/bernhard-olumsuzluk-uzerine\/","url_meta":{"origin":1359,"position":1},"title":"Bernhard, \u00d6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fck \u00dczerine","author":"yalpertem","date":"2 September 2017","format":false,"excerpt":"\"Stefan Kilisesi'nde \u00f6l\u00fcm yere d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceye kadar oturma iste\u011fi duymu\u015ftum, dedi. 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